♕ |[64]| through me to some me not yet there who i suppose is you

[had_not_lived]

The first time the City turned me into someone I wasn't-- still me, but a me who isn't and never could be real-- was a few months, I guess, after I first came here. I hadn't realized before then what that could be like. Believing a whole other lifetime. I remember I acted like an ass afterward. I was embarrassed about being cursed, I guess, or

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[renegare]

Two years caged. And you're alive.

[had_not_lived]

I don't think of it as being caged, though I understand why a lot of people do.

[renegare]

A prouder animal would choose suicide.

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[had_not_lived]

[had_not_lived]

I think that's part of it, at least.

[had_not_lived]

It goes to show I would've made an awful doctor.

[chosered]

I didn't think most people apologized for curses.

[had_not_lived]

There usually isn't a reason for it. I mean, everyone knows curses are just curses.

[chosered]

That's right.

[had_not_lived]

But sometimes it helps. Or sometimes we can't help ourselves.

[adamantined]

Curses are stupid, no matter how used to them you get.

You don't have anything to be jealous of.

[had_not_lived]

I don't feel jealous now, really. Maybe because I've got a life I love here. But... I do have regrets. I can't say I don't. That made it hard to get over it, at the time.

[adamantined]

It's a nice change of pace for someone to say they actually like their life here.

[had_not_lived]

I know it's pretty rare.