♕ |[64]| through me to some me not yet there who i suppose is you

[had_not_lived]

The first time the City turned me into someone I wasn't-- still me, but a me who isn't and never could be real-- was a few months, I guess, after I first came here. I hadn't realized before then what that could be like. Believing a whole other lifetime. I remember I acted like an ass afterward. I was embarrassed about being cursed, I guess, or

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[had_not_lived]

I think that's part of it, at least.

[had_not_lived]

It goes to show I would've made an awful doctor.

[had_not_lived]

I wasn't, not really. It sounds a little callous, but I think that's part of why it wasn't as upsetting, too. That wasn't ever who I wanted to be.

[had_not_lived]

I think, honestly, I'm happier here.