♕ |[32]| Winter kept us warm, covering earth in forgetful snow

[had_not_lived]

[VIDEO;]
[Blurry hands cover the picture first as Neil positions the camera on some surface, then draws back and sits in front of it. He looks resigned; this isn't a post he wants to make, but since he has no choice he's trying to be dignified about it.

On his shirt, on the left breast just above his heart, a bright, ornate, scarlet S is

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lol morbid Cain is morbid...

[misterblackbird]

Suicide? Really?

sobbb Neil will see your morbidity and raise you some recklessness.

[had_not_lived]

I shot myself.

[misterblackbird]

I see.

[had_not_lived]

It was stupid.

Tsurugi will see your suicide, and raise it with a genocide.

[sword_boy]

It's okay! Technically my second death is suicide! If it makes you feel better, before I let myself be killed in an honorable death, I helped to commit and complete a genocide of an entire alien species!

Neil will... sulk. *cough*

[had_not_lived]

I didn't do anything honorable. I just-- it was stupid. My death was stupid.

[sword_boy]

So? Death is death. The only reason I died, is because I had to completely kill off all of the Worm... and I somehow became one somewhere along the way.

Your death wasn't stupid.

[had_not_lived]

You don't have to try and make me feel better about it. It wasn't the right thing to do, I know it wasn't. I can't pretend it was.

[video]

[revengeisalie]

[Have Rin staring at the camera dejectedly.]

... oh. I, ah --

It's from a book?

[video]

[had_not_lived]

[He nods, not much more cheerful.]

The Scarlet Letter.

[video]

[revengeisalie]

Thanks. Maybe I'll look that up, or something.

[Pause.]

A snowball fight, you say?

[video]

[had_not_lived]

Yeah.

[He looks relieved not to be talking about letters.]

A big one, with as many people as I can get. It sounded like a fun idea.

voice;

[adamantined]

You could always pretend that it's for snowball.

voice;

[had_not_lived]

I guess I could. I don't want to lie, though.

voice;

[adamantined]

It's not lying if you don't talk about it. Is it making you talk about it?

voice;

[had_not_lived]

I had to put it up, I don't have to tell people about it. But I didn't want people wondering or guessing and I want to be honest. It's something I did; I'm not proud of it, but I can't pretend it didn't happen.

[primrosella]

You got one too, Neil?

[had_not_lived]

Yeah.

I'm not trying not to let it get the better of me.

[primrosella]

You shouldn't. I've seen this one come around before, and it's just one more ridiculous way of trying to make us all miserable.

[had_not_lived]

I think now and then, this is something worth being miserable about.