♕ |[32]| Winter kept us warm, covering earth in forgetful snow

[had_not_lived]

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[Blurry hands cover the picture first as Neil positions the camera on some surface, then draws back and sits in front of it. He looks resigned; this isn't a post he wants to make, but since he has no choice he's trying to be dignified about it.

On his shirt, on the left breast just above his heart, a bright, ornate, scarlet S is

Comments

lol morbid Cain is morbid...

[misterblackbird]

Suicide? Really?

sobbb Neil will see your morbidity and raise you some recklessness.

[had_not_lived]

I shot myself.

[misterblackbird]

I see.

[had_not_lived]

It was stupid.

[misterblackbird]

I suppose I am wondering why you did it, of course.

[had_not_lived]

I didn't want to live a life of quiet desperation. I mean, at the time, that was what I was thinking. I felt trapped.

[misterblackbird]

I see.

[had_not_lived]

That's all you have to say about it?

[misterblackbird]

I'm not sure what I should say about it. Would you like me to say how sorry I am for your loss?

[had_not_lived]

Is that supposed to be a joke?

It seems odd that you wouldn't have any opinion of it, I guess.

[misterblackbird]

No, not really.

Truth be told, I would have been more inclined to fight than to die, I think. But, then, I wasn't in your situation.

[had_not_lived]

I didn't think there was any way to fight it.

[misterblackbird]

As I said, I wasn't in your situation.

[had_not_lived]

I feel like you're trying to be polite.

[misterblackbird]

I don't think I should be rude in such a situation.

[had_not_lived]

It really wouldn't bother me. What I did was stupid, I can admit that.