i fuckin win. yesterday... i crashed into a mail-man-truck/thingy. in catie's mom's car. fuck fuck fuck. because i was lighting a ciggarette. fuck me. i am a dumbass. and i felt/feel like a complete dumbass, because it's not my first wreck. i just shouldnt drive. anywho, back to the story. me and catie talked to the postal-people, telling them what ( Read more... )

[01 Jul 2005|12:12am ( Read more... )

this is going to be a real lj post. exciting, huh? thought so.

right now in my life things are falling down all around me, but it hasn't seemed to really GET to me, ya dig? like the car thing... the fucking car thing. this car has been in my garage for weeks  begging to be driven. i had the money to pay for registration, which is the deal, but ( Read more... )

I DON'T:

Want things to get difficult again

Want to be in the same place i was

Care what people think of me

Care who says what. what the fuck ever. HS BS is not worth my time or effort.

Care about the same people.

Want david to go away

Want to be alive sometimes.

Care that you dont care.

Have enough money

Know who he is becoming.

I DO:

Work to ( Read more... )

hahaha. gotta love da wake n bake. hehehe

- quit he-he-ing!-

that seems to be all i ever do with my life. it is no bueno. well, work, and smoke pot. which is also all i ever do with my life. oh well though. it happens to the best of us. david got himself a pipe and i dont know how much i like it. whatever, though, not my problem, well not really. i cant control what he does. and i guess if i really say ( Read more... )

some things in my life ( Read more... )

For our first date ( Read more... )

so david and i talked about portales. well he talked. we are not going to be together. i am absolutely devastated. i wish i could go to portales with him. i'm going to have a little dry spot undermy nose from crying. it burns right now... jason is coming back soon and i am way excited to see him. he is coming just in time and we better have a great ( Read more... )

im still a little drunk and i wish i could sleep more, but if i go to sleep now i will not not wake up in time to take a shower. no shower=barely alive. my foot is asleep. yesterday we drank a bottle of "the worlds best vodka" that's all i remember about calling it. i dont think i even looked at the label. oh well. it was a good night. i got to ( Read more... )