yep hmm....It's late. I'm up. I'm thinking....how'd I lose my boundries with this guy?? I want to go...damn I want to. My reason/excuse/safety net..is looking like she's cancelling on me. If so...do I go anyhow? How do I justify that? What do I go for? Obvious...it's why I said sure to her rediculous request in the first place ( Read more... )

I swear this man toys with me ( Read more... )

-grin- good title. I think I see now what she saw in him....difficult to put a finger on. Caring, but not smothering. Emotionally honest, but not emotionally vulnerable or needy. Strong, but not unkind or egotistical ( Read more... )

Heh...I am so friggin hopeless with this one. I don't know if I just need a cold shower or my head examined...or both. Probably both?

He came back on...I felt...giddy? No...elated? heh me? I don't know. Happy that he's not angry and thinking I'm some cold bitch that just walked away...stubborn.

Ever have a few consecutive days where -nothing- you do goes right? heh ( Read more... )

Just got this from a friend...thought I'd answer here ( Read more... )

I awake...yesterday was a hit for me. Blow to me. I took it all too personally. It's more than yesterday...I'm just in a slump. Knew I shouldn't socialize. Knew it. But I felt alone....a little lost ( Read more... )

Missing her...you know? It's a tough day. Just want to pick up the phone...tell her how life is. Seems to come in waves. So used to talking to her every day. Even when she wasn't here so much....it was still day to day. Leaves me...melancholy. Found an old drum of hers...remembering sitting on the floor beside her...watching her hands move over it ( Read more... )

What a night. We went karoke...to a few places until we finally settled into a new one. It was nice. Good tables. Was sang desperado again...getting tired of the ladies singing that to me. -grin- I'll come down when I'm damn good and ready ( Read more... )

It's insane...I know. I tell myself...it's only a good time. Dark rolling emotions in the pit of my stomach while I watched...his eyes drooping in pleasure, his brow knotting..knowing I watched... My mind filling with so much imagery...intense. Moist. Imagining it was me sheathing him, gripping him, pulling him closer and deeper...not his hand. ( Read more... )