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random facts
1.) found out this week that i no longer have to get a mastectomy in august. which is great for a variety of reasons, above and beyond the fact that i won't be reduced to life as a person with one giant boob. it means that i don't have to have the removal surgery, but also that i won't need the 1-3 other surgeries involved with reconstruction. and ( Read more... ) -
the emo in chemo
the night before chemo. i'm trying to think of what to compare it too, maybe the sick feeling of dread you have the night before an exam you aren't ready for, or the night before a paper you won't have finished is due, combined with the night after a big fight with your lover that you didn't get resolved before you need to go to sleep. sorta like ( Read more... ) -
when smoke gets in your eyes
spent most of today outside, have a mild sunburn on my head, from reading the paper and drinking coffee on carolyn's front step. some bike riding, went to the batting cages with my lovely lovely friends, campfire, singing and good food at kathryns and now i smell of smoke, and have the whole king-size bed to myself. life is good. -
therapy - group and otherwise
Despite the fact that i never been that skilled at sharing my feelings, i'm not opposed to therapy, i just never felt like it was really necessary. Then when i started this whole trip i felt like i was managing fairly well, but then someone mentioned that it is better to go when you don't really need it and try to avert a crisis than to wait until ( Read more... ) -
i want it long, straight, curly, fuzzy...
one of my earliest memories is running in circles around the record player in the sunken living room in my parents newly built house. it was before the green shag carpet was installed and i was supposed to be wearing socks so that i wouldn't get a sliver from the plywood sub-floor. i was also likely not supposed to be running so near the record ( Read more... ) -
i don't know why- you're the doctor!
was supposed to have a liver ultrasound at 12:30 today. which includes fasting for 4 hours in advance so i got up early (6:30) so i could eat a bowl of cereal and drink some water because we all know how i get when i don't eat (if you don't know count yourself lucky). at 10:00 they phoned to tell me that i don't have to go after all because they ( Read more... ) -
spring
last weekend i was making apple pancakes and when we cut into the organic apples i had the seeds were sprouting. its crazy how i found this exciting. i've never seen sprouted apple seeds before! so i planted them in a pot on my window sill, and the green is starting to break through. I know that it's kinda a crap shoot as to what kind of a tree ( Read more... ) -
Oncologist
On the 7th i went with my parents and gillian to the CCMB to meet Dr.Lau, and my Nurse Michelle Morton. I had looked up Dr.Lau on rate your md ahead of time and the people that wrote about him on there all loved him.so i'll take that as a good sign. unfortunately my radiation oncologist does not have the same good reviews ( Read more... ) -
radioactive
on friday my brother tim came. my parents were still here and we went straight from the airport to carolyn's house for a little bday party. it was mom and dad, tim, carolyn, jess, rob and me. We made pizzas with lots of gourmet supplies from delucas- yum and had chocolate cake that my mom made. Then we had some rye and played dutch blitz. everyone ( Read more... ) -
no buns in the oven
Alright, here's is the update after my last post ( Read more... )