if its takes one man to drink 40 gallons of water, how many men would it take to drink 40 cases of cold beer? just a question hovering over my head. nothing very interesting, complete nonsense. we look back at our lives and hopefully have no regrets. the other day a friend of mine took all this anger out on me, what did i ever do to them? i asked ( Read more... )

so im just going to go out on a limb tonight. perhaps its because i have forgotten who i am. but i guess you could not tell me that. i think to myself deeply, if i am older then before would i also have the knowledge to only see myself as a better person? many people are to thank for this. once you have a found a reason to set your feet off your ( Read more... )

so i havent ventured out into the world of computers for awhile. i find it boring now. i only sit upon this very keyboard thinking about what to do next. anticipating who will come into my pc and hack into my crazy absurb mind. although i still think about all the people that have commented on that. i miss them. i miss you. perhaps the time has ( Read more... )

if i only waited three hours before the icicles melted down my back. i feel a chill passing beneath my feet and into my skin. before i woke up this morning i felt as though something different would encounter me. perhaps this was the moment i realized that everything was here and nothing needed it to be dissolved into smaller parts. i will sink now ( Read more... )

tonight may of been a little different than usual. everything just seemed a little bit quieter and perhaps maybe even more hateless. when i thought this would never happen, it finally did. i odviously still have dreams of nasty little cuts that happen to me when i fall down all those countless stairs. maybe that is why i am smiling. i am smiling in ( Read more... )

sleeping is much easier now. instead of opening my sore eyes for hours, they only seem to stay awake for a few countless seconds. it only seems now that i am always dreaming of horrible cheats. nothing usually ever happens but i feel so guilty when i awake. if all things were made up of helpless soldiers we wouldnt need to sleep, we would just look ( Read more... )

another day. another hour passed. something has been wondering in my head for too many days. creeping beneath my skin, trying to make me forget. forget what? i have no desire. i perhaps need passion, or do i just need to look past all the horrible mistakes and jump? if i do fall will you be there to lick the blood away from the cuts that have taken ( Read more... )

if you ever wanted to dive into a huge bowl of simpleness, you would know that this place was derived of the such. nothing but a dull color of white, with little tiny bumps of grey. so if there was actually somebody out there to walk backwards with the rain, you would amaze those still standing.

ive got two words for all you wankers out there,
abstract writing.

i often think what would happen if i were to make christmas into something more like halloween? more orange and black. altho i do like those white little twinkly lights. they seem to swoop down over my toque and laugh at my silly hair. maybe all things will change over time and sit upon our heads and pick at our invisible thoughts. doesnt chaos ( Read more... )