I havent written in this thing in like 69 years i know...but I have been busy and lazy. not like there is much exitement anyway. this is my first week of school and I hate it already ( Read more... )

Lets play a game

lets call it depression

the object is to figure out

who hates me more

you,

or me

do you understand how sad it is

just to realize how corrupt everything is?

how gruesome it is

to break out of this transical daze of happiness,

to be one of the few that ever will

all i've been taught is lies

all i've sought is wrong

how can ( Read more... )

  I had the best birthday party ever! thank you Jack, Ang, DianaKat,and Joner!!!  i won the hot-air ballon game....and i got to ride a Mechanical Bull!! I'm really glad Kevin came...i kinda felt bad he was the only guy there...but he didn't mind. well i gotta get some sleep i got work in the morning.  <3

And I find It kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which Im dying are the best Ive ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world

I feel so old. i turn 19 on wednesday! i wish you were turning 19 too jack then we could go to canada !!  i realy wanted to do something for mine and jackies b-days, but jack is right, every time we try to plan a birthday, something always goes wrong ( like someone dosen't show up ...or the limo driver gets into a fist fight....) ahaha  well i don' ( Read more... )

I've been working out 3 days a week for the last 3 weeks and i don't think i lost any weight. i hate being fat. maybe i should be anorexic?   so i guess i dont have to work today, jack are you still goin to the show tonight, let me know im free. i saw THIRTEEN  yesterday... it was good,  really intense! hahaha

Las Vegas was sooo much fun!!!  all i wanted to do is lay out and drink my pina colada, it was great.  i had my doubts about going with vian but it was actually cool.

The only thing that sucked is that jack and jessy weren't there : (   but we're all gonna go for jack's 21st b-day.....i'm planning it now lol.   i'll try to post some pics soon.

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i am so tired i was up till 3:00am packing and organizing all my shit but i'm finally done!!!!

I'm so exited,my bag is packed and i'm just waiting for my uncle to get he so we can go to the airport. I wish jackie and jessi were coming it would be so much fun, but maybe we'll all go to cedar point this summer. I'm gonna miss you jack  :(        .... ( Read more... )

A friend made me realize this week just how blind i've been. I take everything i have for granted and i'm never satisfied. I spend all my time complaining about Insignificant details of my life. What i wan't,what i can't have,how my hair doesn't curl, if i'm gonna graduate from college in 6 years or wather it will take me 8 years, or why i'm always ( Read more... )

I'm in serious need of sleep. the last two weeks i have had finals to study for and ive been working,i was running on 3 hours of sleep the other day...i thought i was gonna pass out at work. well i'm so glad that shit is over. i get a break before spring/summer classes start....and i'm so exited about vegas!! I think all I'm gonna do friday is ( Read more... )