wonder if i'll ever see it again.

ok can things stop being shitty for everyone i mean seriously stop it. what the fuck is this.

if i keep imagining it, will it happen?

if i can't get any, then you can't get any.

so there.

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sometimes i wonder why i am so upset over everything and why i can't get things out of my head like a normal person. how did this even start in the first place? what the fuck am i doing? why does this keep happening?

fuck everyone and fuck this place.

im going to sit at home and cry my eyes out if i dont do something tonight besides sitting in this fucking piece of shit hell of a house.

went back to the calabasas house to pick up junk. it was hauntingly empty. i had a panic attack.

picked up photos from a disposable camera i had from earlier this year. some pictures were in it that made me cry. another panic attack.

driving down the 101 east at night. panic attack.

man, fuck this place.

dissertation done. strange last three days.

UGH PEOPLE NEED TO GET OVER THEMSELVES AND STOP OVERREACTING TO THINGS AND MAKING THINGS MORE DRAMATIC THAN THEY ARE. WHY THE FUCK DOES IT MATTER? IT DOESN'T MATTER. SHUT THE FUCK UP AND STOP BEING A FUCKING DOUCHE AND GET OVER IT.