oops, that last entry was a backdated entry from 4 years ago that somehow did not get backdated.... sorry for the confusion.

I am leaving this Livejournal account because I have repeatedly been violated and I can no longer take the stress that it brings. I wish everyone the best of luck.
Goodbye.

I do not express my deeper feelings to anyone. It is a habit learned out of misunderstandings and misinterpretations. I am sorry that it is a habit, not only because I am depriving you of the most important side of me, but also because I am depriving myself of sharing that side of me with you ( Read more... )

I do not want to sleep alone anymore. It is heartwrenching, this feeling. I care deeply for so many people, and many of them return the same sentiments. Why is it then that I find myself consistantly sleeping alone? There are a few people I feel really close to and have a connection with. There are more that I wish a connection would present itself ( Read more... )

I am bored as a motherfucker tonight. Downloaded some videogames onto my computer. Yeah ChronoTrigger and Shining Force. Yeah anything Final Fantasy. I have every friggin emulator now, all the more reason to stay home. The more I go out the more it seems I get into trouble. Heh, so the past month I think I have gone out maybe once a week. Starting ( Read more... )

I just got back from running. I feel so fatigued. Wow am I out of shape. I jogged a mile and I plan on doing some situps and the crossbow later at my friend B's house. Well when I got back from running I come into the house to the smell of smoke. I fucking hate that smell worse than anything else, and after running it really sets me off. So I tell ( Read more... )

So, I was thinking tonight. Scary thing I know. Lately I have been thinking much more than I have had to in recent memory. Maybe thinking is not the correct word, 'dwelling' seems more appropriate.
More than anything else in the world, more than any my dream to travel the world, I strive to be understood. But as I write this I am thinking again. ( Read more... )

Why do we feel compelled to make new year's resolutions? Every year we vow to make changes to our lives, to live them better, to be more honest, to stop abusing our bodies. It never lasts. So why should I even bother to make a resolution if I know I am just going to throw it away? So this is my resolution: I will not make a single resolution that I ( Read more... )

Larry Joe’s birthday was last night. I got into a huge argument with his best female friend crystal because of her moral hang-ups regarding Hooters (which is our traditional place to meet for birthdays). Here is a little of that conversation:

LMystic99B: hey we are going to the hooters at west port tonight

Mystic Leopard11: k have fun

LMystic99B: so ( Read more... )

I hate the casino

I hate the casino. It blows ass. I have been 2 times and dropped about $300 bucks. Roulette sucks, blackjack sucks, the slots suck. My lesson: stop going to the casino. The night as a whole was all right though. It was LJ's 21st birthday. he had about 12 drinks, won $75 bucks, happy ending yay for him. my brother walked up over $ ( Read more... )