so me & sid had a talk yesterday and it was a good talk and we really got to understand how we felt about what's going on and it really helped me to know that he doesn't want to leave me but he really wants to do this and he isn't trying to hurt me at all and that we are still going to have the plans that we were always going to have... i had so ( Read more... )

i dunno what to think anymore... i don't want him to leave... especially leave me all alone without him... it's a few months away but i still don't want him to go... what if he gets called to go into war... i don't want something to happen and i can't be there and i can't talk to him whenever i want or if i'm having a bad day that he will hold me ( Read more... )

yes this is the second day in which i feel like shit... the only thing that is making me happy is sid but i can't stop crying cuz of the way my parents are making me feel. i don't understand why they make me feel like shit. it's like i can't do anything right and that i'm the shittest person alive. i just want how life used to be... not a care in ( Read more... )

so i haven't written in this in a long time but i need to vent out some stuff that i've been holding in for a long time and this is the only way i can think of doing it... so me and sid are doing great. he's the best and we are so in love with each other.. i love it! and yea we have some bad times but who doesn't? but the thing is it's mostly my ( Read more... )

i'm waiting for mary to come pick me up and then i dunno what we are gonna do. today hasn't been the best day but i'm not gonna stress over it cuz i am sick of it and whatever i say isn't gonna help anything so i'm done. sid and me are still really good. he is so funny and i can't wait til everyone meets him.. it's been what like 3 months and ( Read more... )

there's been so much happening in such a short amount of time. it's crazy how things can change in a blink of an eye. but whatever i'm not gonna get worked up over it. i mean it is a big deal but i hope things will work out. me and sid are doing great. well, at least i think we are. he's so awesome and i'm so happy i have him because without him i ( Read more... )

today was an okay day. i had cramps all day and they hurt like a bitch wanted to go home but i knew i wouldn't be able to. so i stayed. school was alright except for english when we had a test and i didn't know about it then i get yelled. every other class is going good. people are still being bitches oh well nothing i can do about it. i miss dana ( Read more... )

being grounded doesn't suck as bad as it does cuz no one calls me anymore or ask me to do anything.. so f them.. friday, i just stayed at home and worked on my paper for history.. i finished it in 7 hours.. haha then i talked to sid on the phone he came over on saturday and i was boring and i just wanted to lay around and watch movies then we left ( Read more... )

friday was okay.. me and dana went to the game.. it was okay.. i don't really like goin to basketball games because people at case are gay. i'm getting sick of case. people are bitches and you can't trust no one.. yeaaaa ( Read more... )

today was actually a pretty decent day. first hour i have gym and i got caught in a volleyball net as i was walking, luckily no one really saw, a few did but o well. the rest of the day was okay. i got a mix of lil wyte songs today from ducky and i like lil wyte so it made me happy. i talked to dana for a little today not long cuz she put me on ( Read more... )