So life has been turbulent lately, but I think that since I have made the decision to stay and stick it out, that things have become less than. Things were rough for a bit, but since I nixed Jacob, had many a heart felt and tearful conversations with friends and family, withdrawn from school, and been interviewing for full-time positions, I have ( Read more... )

Ok, this is a question that I have always been unsure of how I would answer... but when I place myself in the shoes of that other person, I would want to know... SO ( Read more... )

I’m sure it’s just the lonely talking but ( Read more... )

He had to talk me into going out with him. He's short. He's cute. Drives a big truck. He was impressed by my abilities and by my interests. We ate ice cream. We watched a flick. We laughed. We talked. And then we kissed. The movie had ended. I felt something between the two of us. He received a phone call- it wasn't good. Something wasn't right- he ( Read more... )

I just received an e-mail from Randy, Ryan(my ex-boyfriend)’s younger brother. I haven’t spoken to anyone in the O’Neil family since January, so needless to say I was a little more than shocked to see one an e-mail from one of them. My state of being shocked was then blanketed with fear; the title of the e-mail said ‘Bad News ( Read more... )

There we were, you and I, on a boat speeding through a lake among the woods. We were unbelievably happy- a bliss that I have never before felt with you. You were zig-zagging the cruiser through the water with little or no effort. You were looking back at me as we both laughed. We laughed with our whole bodies. The reason why we were laughing is ( Read more... )

Well, it’s been awhile; I have been busy ( Read more... )

There is a baby crying- no, whailing. It cries in agony. I don't know why it cries. I don't know what it's feeling. I don't even know what the baby looks like. But if I had to imagine, it would look like me. I feel its pain and I too am crying. I want to scream like the baby can. I want to let the world know I am hurting. And mostly, I want the ( Read more... )

I have never judged you- I have maybe expressed my opinion but I have always followed up with “you are going to do what you want but you should always do what makes you happy ( Read more... )

I feel so hollow- like I've lost all of my organs, or maybe its just my heart that I've lost. How can something so magical, so real, so perfect just up and leave with no apparent reason?! This isn't fair- its not fair to me! I put so much into him and I and he convinces me that he's in it for the long haul and then what does he do, he turns around ( Read more... )