I think I'm going into a low point in my life. Not with everything though. I am disgusted at myself. I don't want to even look at myself in the mirror anymore, well at least not my body. I'm gaining weight back, and everytime I eat I feel like a failure. I don't like feeling that way. I want to be happy with myself but I'm not. I don't remember ( Read more... )

Reading my other posts, I have a tendency to write about things I don't think most people wanna hear . But then again, they don't have to read it. Things like me bleeding because of rough sex, I know most people probably think thats gross. But whatever, don't read it then. It's already saturday, though I don't even remember friday all that much. I ( Read more... )

Ok, everything is better. Me bleeding wasn't my period, but caused because of rough sex. So I went to my appointment. I waited in the waiting room with a bunch of other women, all wondering why is this taking so long? Finally I went in. Talked for a few minutes, then got undressed and then came the exam! I felt very uncomfortable, so I started ( Read more... )

Maybe I'm dying, maybe my body is just really sick. I don't know. But something is wrong. I know people may not want to hear this but I keep bleeding as if I'm on my period, but I'm not and I shouldn't be. I have no premenstrual symptoms, so this comes as a major surprise, and not a welcome one either. Its not fair, ever since I was on birth ( Read more... )

I have just started saving money so I can buy myself a new scanner. So far I have 7.27 in change that I founds around the house. The cheapest one I found is 40, so I need 32.73. But where oh where will I get that money? I already asked my mom, and she said no because she doesn't have any money to give, and I don't want to mooch off of anyone else. ( Read more... )

Everyone, keep your fingers crossed for me. I just filled out an application at Applebee's to become a server. I know it's not the best job, but it's something. I really need the money. I have things to save for like school, a car, moving out, and just basic things I need. I am praying that I get it. My momey budget is pathetic. I'm sick of going ( Read more... )

Life moves slowly when you have nothing to do. I wish I had somewhere to go, people to be with. I mean on the weekends I see Jay, but during the week, it's just me. I have no one to talk to, other then myself, and I am pretty much isolated. This drives me insane sometimes, but I don't have any friends to hang out with (sad, I know). I need a job. I ( Read more... )

This is my first entry. But its not going to be like "oh I don't know what to write yet, blah blah blah," I actually have things to say that are pretty damn important ( Read more... )