How many lives are living strange
Reading my other posts, I have a tendency to write about things I don't think most people wanna hear . But then again, they don't have to read it. Things like me bleeding because of rough sex, I know most people probably think thats gross. But whatever, don't read it then. It's already saturday, though I don't even remember friday all that much. I can remember me not knowing what to wear, going to Jay's, me getting there and he was high, and us falling asleep together. What happened between those moments? I have no clue. I don't remember probably because I didn't get any sleep so I was kinda out of it most of the time. But I never get sleep, unless I really need it. Cuz otherwise I am on a caffeine rush awakeness. People always get worried for me and say how much I need sleep, but I'm use to just always being awake. I pretty much just say fuck sleep. I always feel like when I do get some rest, like there are better things I could be doing then just sleeping my life away. Not that me just sitting on my computer all the time is doing much but it's just what I do. I can't just sit still and do nothing, cuz I'll go insane. Though I've never been diagnosed with ADD, I probably have it. There has to be some real reason to why I am this way. I'm not organized, I can't be doing the same thing for too long cuz I get extremely bored, I have issues with paying attention for too long, I hate reading because I get bored and I'm not doing something with my hands, and I could go on but I'm already getting bored with this. And my stupid ass just spilled olive juice on the keyboard. Good thing it still works. I don't know whats wrong with me. Maybe I'm retarded. Thats what my grandma thinks. Maybe I should start believing that too. But my excuse is that I'm just an artist. And usually an artist is kinda off and not "normal" as they say. But I don't wanna be normal. I'm a hyper active, cheesy, fruit cake, computer nerd, artist. What a beautiful thing. I just wish other people saw it as being beautiful. I wish I had friends that I could hang out with during the day because being in my house all the time can sometimes get annoying. I'd rather go sit in someone elses house. God now I'm just going on about the all the same shit as I usually do and its pissing me off. I have to go and get ready to go out, I guess, because I'm going to see Jay sometime today. I get to hang out at bucket works, (add sarcastic woo hoo here), He has a show he put together there tonight and the only way I get to see him is if I go help out there. I'd rather be gettin drunk, or something like that. Kinda like New Years, getting drunk, kissin bitches, that was fun. Well whatever, I think I'm gonna go. I need coffee right now but I don't have any, so I'm gonna go to the gas station and get some. So, blah blah blah