I'm slipping up again. I feel like I'm supposed to be carrying the weight of the world and I keep coming up short. I need to stop hoping that I might find a decent girl anytime soon, everytime something has potential, I somehow manage to ruin it before it even gets started. I hate feeling this way, it's like every few months I just want to give up ( Read more... )

A couple good days made me feel invincible, then the shit starts to roll again. Things arent the same, I need to cut my loses and walk away before I get to invested in this shit. I guess all is well, if all else fails at least I know the truth.

There is nothing more important then rock n roll. Lets go out tonight, get shitfaced and wreck the world, all in the name of rock n roll. Where is the party at?

I need a job, I hope I get hired at the hardware store. Can someone hire me? I have open availability and am awesome.

I think, I've finally lost it all. This could be a good thing, afterall a man with nothing aint got nothing to loose but I could just break down compeletly and that wouldnt be so rad. Whatever, I'm just going with the flow. I kinda miss having someone to call.

Theres a place for all of this.

Memories made by hazy nights with my best friends has become the greatest part of my life. As noted previously, I've pretty much given up on trying to lead a normal existance, (all I really want) but to me these nights out have been some sort of worldly restitution for fucking me in the ass for near 18 years. I've ( Read more... )

I feel cold through and through and when, if ever, I feel warm inside, its not comforting but infact a terrible burning. Lately it feels as if the only emotion I'm allowed to feel is burning hatred.

I've passed the point of caring, there are 5 people in my life right now that I love and care for and a few potentials that may or may not make the list, only time will tell. The rest of you can choke. I miss hanging out with Anthony, I havent seen him in up towards a month, that sucks ( Read more... )

Shit is still rad, I've been hanging out with John alot and thats awesome. I started painting, and sketching alot more again. I'm still lonely as fuck, but its not too big of a deal, I hung out with amanda the other night and I think me and her have a better understanding of where each other is coming from now. My new band starts practicing this ( Read more... )

Fuck yeah, last night was sweet. I went to burlingtron with Leah to have "the most awkward double date in history" with Hank and Alyssa. We hung out at Hank's forever and watched some wrestling (oh how i love the WWE), then continued to watch some dateline special on child predators. Hank and I took lessons on how not to sleep with 13 year old ( Read more... )