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I'm slipping up again. I feel like I'm supposed to be carrying the weight of the world and I keep coming up short. I need to stop hoping that I might find a decent girl anytime soon, everytime something has potential, I somehow manage to ruin it before it even gets started. I hate feeling this way, it's like every few months I just want to give up and leave everything I know behind. I truley miss belonging to something and to someone, I dont have anything to latch onto anymore and it's the scariest thing I've ever had to deal with. I feel like there's no one to talk to anymore and that my current social circle has an absence that I cannot explain, and I feel like it might be because of my complete lack of connection to anyone, I've pushed everyone away and now I truley regret it. I cant sleep, I cant eat, I just want to get out.