d00d. i dyed my hair. TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK, OKAY? mike thinks it looks bad all puffy. what do you think? he said he'd style it for me next time he comes over. jkjdlkja asshole.

BEFORE:

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things between me and mike have been kind of rocky lately. most of it is over money, or lack there of, and my eating disorder. he found out i lied to him about the throwing up and got really pissed and said we might break up. that REALLY pissed me off. me lying was wrong but i only did it because i felt like i couldn't tell him the truth. if i did ( Read more... )

The kitchen is cold but the coffee is warm
The sun is coming up
The day has just begun and you are already bored
You're bored of cheering me up,
bored of calming me down,
bored of drying my eyes
But there was once a time when you were the one
You were the blue of the sky
You came after the storm
You were the switch on the wall ( Read more... )

alrighty. updating time again. so like 10 days ago me and mike went bowling with karl and some other kid. it was awesome. i like bowling. but this is besides the point. the point in me saying this was he asked me out that day. i finally said yes. took me long enough. haha. i really like this kid. we argue a lot but that's because we're both ( Read more... )

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So unaffectionate
So insecure
You claim to know
A thing or two about heartache
And what it’s like to have your insides torn out
And I believe you
I see it every time your pallbearer’s pallor is obscured by the darkness (the darkness)
Dancing across your face (across your face)
And when the blackness veils your eyes in pain
I know what it’s like ( Read more... )

time to update again. my christmas was pretty good. didn't get much shit but i expected that. the next day i went to stillborn fest with mike and his friend marshall who came up from florida for break. it was fun. we didn't stay to see hatebreed which made me sad. then on like the 28th, me, mike and marshall went to this party/poker thing and i got ( Read more... )

i honestly hate christmas. this year i'm not getting anything from my family because there is no money to get anything. which is fine because i don't want my mom to waste money on me and my sisters when there is absolutely no money to begin with but it's a little depressing. there is no holiday cheer in my house whatsoever. we have no christmas ( Read more... )

i've been hanging out with mike A LOT. last weekend was fun. got drunk and went all around lansdale then went and played pool. it was pretty fun. today he came over. i was in a pissed off mood. guess what? HE SURPRISED ME WITH FLOWERS! fuck yeah. he bought me flowers to cheer me up. i've never really gotten flowers before. haha. yes. well thats all ( Read more... )

metalXmike is cool.lets see. yesterday i was supposed to hang out with metalXmike. [i call him this as not to get him confused with mike, the ex] he got halfway here and he killed his clutch. i felt so bad. he canceled on me once because he didn't wanna drive all the way to my house and this time he did and his car died. i felt so guilty. i made ( Read more... )