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things between me and mike have been kind of rocky lately. most of it is over money, or lack there of, and my eating disorder. he found out i lied to him about the throwing up and got really pissed and said we might break up. that REALLY pissed me off. me lying was wrong but i only did it because i felt like i couldn't tell him the truth. if i did, he would have blown up at me and that just makes things worse. don't yell at me when i do it mike, just support me. don't make me feel as if i can't come to you when i need to because i feel threatened. i already feel so guilty for doing it, but then you getting mad just makes it x927957 worse. enough with that though.
mike got a job. well two actually. so hopefully money won't be so much of a stresser anymore. i get mad at him because he spent all my money and now there's not enough for gas. but hopefully with his job(s) it won't be so much of a problem anymore. i'm freaking out because i have NO money whatsoever and i borrowed money from arin and alyssa and i NEED to pay them back. but enough with that too. haha.
because i'm on homebound, it requires my family do family based services. so these two people come to my house every monday and they're so stupid. but they said i needed to take up an interest so my mom signed me up for a bowling league. it started today and it was okay. i suck. and it doesn't help that everybody around me has been doing this shit for years. the coach is kinda creepy. he called me baby and sweetie and shit. coming from a trashy middle aged guy, it's kind of weird. my average is like 70something and i have to go in early next week to work with him. but i broke 100 my last game so i'm happy. enough with this too.
i'm bored as hell now. maybe i'll go do dye my hair? who knows.
mike got a job. well two actually. so hopefully money won't be so much of a stresser anymore. i get mad at him because he spent all my money and now there's not enough for gas. but hopefully with his job(s) it won't be so much of a problem anymore. i'm freaking out because i have NO money whatsoever and i borrowed money from arin and alyssa and i NEED to pay them back. but enough with that too. haha.
because i'm on homebound, it requires my family do family based services. so these two people come to my house every monday and they're so stupid. but they said i needed to take up an interest so my mom signed me up for a bowling league. it started today and it was okay. i suck. and it doesn't help that everybody around me has been doing this shit for years. the coach is kinda creepy. he called me baby and sweetie and shit. coming from a trashy middle aged guy, it's kind of weird. my average is like 70something and i have to go in early next week to work with him. but i broke 100 my last game so i'm happy. enough with this too.
i'm bored as hell now. maybe i'll go do dye my hair? who knows.