Having this idea that if I don't sleep, then I don't dream, which means my nightmares don't exist is clearly not rational. Yet, I do this, mostly in phases.  For the past 2 weeks I average about 3 hours of sleep a night. I'm scared to go to sleep, which I think if I had to have a fear, I wish it was something different. To add to this fear of sleep ( Read more... )

Once it it summer and I don't have school, I'm going to go a whole week w/o the internet and my phone. Its getting to be ridiculous. Sometimes, I enjoy being that connected, but most of the time I want to remove myself completely. Yet, here I sit. Constantly checking my phone, and looking at the same websites to procrastinate on doing homework ( Read more... )

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Today at work I had a great conversation about art with a married man who has beautiful blue eyes.  Absolutely nothing flirtatious about it.

It was a nice connection to have with a person like that, even for only 5 minutes.

So my focus for this year is to be more present. To focus on the moment and not worry too much about the future or too much about the past.  To just let go of things ( Read more... )

I left work early today as I can barely swallow, my head and sinuses were pulsating, and I had the chills.  My boyfriend surprised me after work at my apartment with a frozen pasta meal, potato wedges, a chocolate bar and Mucinex.

He loves me.

So i just paid of my credit card for my trip to Turkey, and I spent way less than I had originally thought/budgeted for! So that means I can go back this summer, right? I fell in love with Istanbul and ever since I have been home, most of my thoughts are about how I can get myself back there.  Educationally I can easily justify it, financially that ( Read more... )

It has been 3 years since I've written on here.  Perhaps its time to start up again ( Read more... )