holy crap. I am actually moving to California.

My dad almost died, I feel numb.
My grandma is dying, I feel numb.
I had the biggest interview of my life, I feel numb.

See the man that was "stalking" (the police called it that) me at work, out at Chipotle and I run to my car, have a panic attack and start crying.

So frustrating.

So I am thinking about doing body suspension. Yes. I know I have a ridiculous fear of needles, but there is something appealing about this to me. Perhaps its just to prove that I could do it, I am not quite sure what the driving force is behind me wanting to do it. But the thought of it is kind of exciting. I got a new piercing recently and I ( Read more... )

When someone asks you if you are attracted to them. What does that mean to you?

http://youtu.be/6wMYoLlpmF0

I was in Boston from Monday-Wednesday and while I was there I went to the Museum of Fine Arts.  I finally got to see this painting in person.


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So my ex, he and I have been broken up for a little over a year and a half. I have a really nice book of his father's that I would like to return to him.  The ex, refuses to see me and wants me to either mail it, or drop it off at his work, no negotiating on that. He is also engaged now/possibly married (some people speculate that he is already ( Read more... )

My grandparents just celebrated their 60th wedding anniversary.  The love that they have for each other is just incredible.  I hope I'm lucky enough to have half of what they have.  They truly love each other and have for at least the past 60 years ( Read more... )

Went to visit My Grandma in the hospital today. She is 87. Today was the first time she ever looked "old" to me.

I deserve to be a priority.  I am not there just for convenience. at least communication is open and going well. but still. its frustrating. How long do I wait around? I want to believe he is worth it. But its getting old and I feel like a broken record sometimes.  Maybe its something I need to change. I know there are variables that one cannot ( Read more... )