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Ohgodohgodohgodohgod
OH THANK WHATEVER HIGHER POWERS THERE MAY BE THE IN-LAWS HAVE LEFT THE ROOM. Caps lock was unintentional but I was too excited to stop even once I had realized. I am losing my fucking mind with these obnoxious people. They cannot let him be for a single fucking moment until he yells at them or we both just drown them out. It must be hard for his ( Read more... ) -
Everything is all right
So, everything has returned to normal. No more psycho-worrisome-fake relationship problems that my mind conjures up occasionally. I am very relieved and as always I hope to handle it better next time ( Read more... ) -
So that's what that is, eh?
I felt I had something to type up here but the more I think it the less I want to type it. I considered a string of profanities as a post but decided that would be a rather cruel thing to do to the few that would read it ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
Meditated today. It was an experience. I had been avoiding it for a couple of years but it wasn't so bad. Apparently I don't have as many issues as I thought I did ( Read more... ) -
Oh my
I am not almost constantly overwhelmed by my anxiety. That may be a slight exaggeration but it does seem almost like a constant thought lately. It'll pass though I'm sure, I just need to tough it out. I go through it every now and then ( Read more... ) -
These fine days
Weird lately. I always think it's silly when my grandmother goes on about how "weird" she feels but I know what she's talking about and I feel the same. I guess I don't really feel that great and it's not going to kill me to admit even just to myself that the situation I'm in sucks. Maybe I feel weird because I'm getting anxious about it sucking ( Read more... ) -
I love my friends (Namely Cordelia)
So, I've been spending a lot of time with my dying grandmother lately. Which is not to complain but to explain the crazy way I've been feeling lately. Grandma and i aren't close by any means but this last year or so she has finally taken to me. So, we don't talk much but we do spend time together. Also, I have to mention, once again not to complain ( Read more... ) -
Breath Breath Breath
feeling so unbalanced all of the sudden. My skin is hot and my heart is racing yet I've been playing around on the computer for hours now. I feel so passionate but I don't know about what and I feel as though something important might rush out of me. This is such a strange way to feel. On the brink of total overwhelming emotion. It is so hard to ( Read more... ) -
Just about ages, I think.
So, blah blah I'm tired of fucking talking about moving back to Kansas. Seriously everyone is asking?! Like people who only kind of knew moved and I am just so absolutely sick of talking about it that I haven't even written in my diary for two weeks. I have an interview (well sort of) with a Starbucks manager on Monday and I'm sure I'll have to ( Read more... ) -
What's that smell?
I haven't talked to anyone in... a while. I got put on late shifts and that just turns my world upside down and slows time until it feels like it isn't even inching by. Never been a night person and working past midnight and then a forty five minute drive home is almost enough to kill me. Especially considering my shift starts before four. Bleh. It ( Read more... )