These fine days
Weird lately. I always think it's silly when my grandmother goes on about how "weird" she feels but I know what she's talking about and I feel the same. I guess I don't really feel that great and it's not going to kill me to admit even just to myself that the situation I'm in sucks. Maybe I feel weird because I'm getting anxious about it sucking and I'm trying to fight it. It sucks I need to embrace that and move on. I don't think I need to be unhappy or anything. It just sucks and maybe if I give into that now and then I won't keep having these anxiety problems.
Maybe it's not even real anxiety and I'm just good ol' fashioned sad. I think I am at least right now. He just left he was only here for a day and he came up to make me feel better because I haven't been handling myself as well as I thought I was. I guess it's a good sign that I don't hide it from him but it's still embarrassing especially that I had to admit he was right. I need to start saving money better, I'm going to go ahead and apply to the post office because apparently they recently hired a group and I never heard about it so I'll just do it and see if I hear back. I need the money because I need a place.
It would be nice to find a place with Cordelia and her boy. At this rate I can't afford not to have roommates. I'd really like to look into buying a small house though. I just need to get some money saved up. I'll have to work two jobs.
Maybe it's not even real anxiety and I'm just good ol' fashioned sad. I think I am at least right now. He just left he was only here for a day and he came up to make me feel better because I haven't been handling myself as well as I thought I was. I guess it's a good sign that I don't hide it from him but it's still embarrassing especially that I had to admit he was right. I need to start saving money better, I'm going to go ahead and apply to the post office because apparently they recently hired a group and I never heard about it so I'll just do it and see if I hear back. I need the money because I need a place.
It would be nice to find a place with Cordelia and her boy. At this rate I can't afford not to have roommates. I'd really like to look into buying a small house though. I just need to get some money saved up. I'll have to work two jobs.