Today I feel like everyone moves on and I stay still. I need to start moving toward something.

I got a bid! Good part is I will be using more mental power than physical power, bad part is I'll be losing about 400/month.

We'll see how it goes!

Think I met a guy I like . . . We'll see!

I'm going to write a book titled: Diary of a Fat Ass

I have two chapters already pre-written in my head.

Chapter 1 - Don't lust after a man in Iowa
Chapter 2 - Lose weight, Fat Ass

I met someone this weekend. Someone that I've chatted with online on and off for the past 10+ years. Unfortunately it was only for a day and he went back to Iowa.

I wish I could have a different life.

It's coming.

I don't want to wait anymore but how to do any different.

I'm going to stop talking so much. I enjoy the light chatter that goes along with my co-workers, but I have decided today that perhaps this is the first step to change. People tend to hear what they want, twist it around for their own benefit. So I'll just live in my own world, that's why I've got an iPod afterall.

What is it like to be normal?

I wonder what it's like to have friends. I have come to realize I'm just a placeholder friend. I'm good enough when you don't have many friends but once you do I'm easily forgotten.

I wonder what it is like to be liked.

I'm not sure if I'm purposely being obtuse, but one day into the new era of American poltics and I'm already tired of hearing how change has come. I understand that Barack Obama has done something special, but he has done nothing yet. Up until January 20, 2009 change is all talk. I understand that he is the first man of color to be President, but ( Read more... )

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you are lavender
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Your dominant hue is blue, making you a good friend who people love and trust. You're good in social situations and want to fit in. Just be careful not to compromise who you are to make them happy.

Your saturation level is very low - you have better things to do than jump headfirst into every little project. You make sure your ( Read more... )