Like about 4 or 5 other entries, I haven't been here in a while and decided it was about time... ummmmm, I really don't know what to write about... sooooo... yeah... I fucking hate life still... everyone is talking shit about me... including my so called 'friends'. I'd just like to say "fuck all of you! Especially the ones with the facades that you ( Read more... )

So! I haven't posted in a long time. Bet you fuckers thought I was dead. Thanks to no one for calling either. Bastards.... So what's new? Not to much... chillen... killen. Murdered two kittens the other day. Hope they have fun in hell. It's strange how little I do with my life... like seriousely. Nothing. Whatever... it's all good. So good news on ( Read more... )

So.... this is no good. I'm so scared. Last night was so fucked. Every time I started to fall asleep I could feel my brain shutting down. Everything except this little spot in the middle of my head near the stem of my brain. This little spot, that every time I drifted off, whispered "you aren't breathing ( Read more... )

A world where love is too much trouble to bother with ( Read more... )

Here might be a nice picture of the type of mood I am in ( Read more... )

Tonight I'm feeling pretty alone. I just wish I had done more with my life. I mean, today I was talking to a friend of mine who is about... 20ish... if that. And hes talking about how he taught english to kids in guatamala and all this. Where the fuck have I been?! Why is it that I have done NOTHING?! Seriousely... I have done NOTHING. I hate it. ( Read more... )

How the fuck does everyone know so many people... I am sooo fucking out of the loop. I'm getting pissed off. I have NO friends. There is Jay, Jay, Matt, Asha, Tina, and sometimes Emilia (depending on her mood most of the time). Thats it folks. I am a LOSER. I wish I was Pat. Me and pat like never talk anymore, cuz he's waaaay to cool for me, but ( Read more... )

I'm in a pretty good mood today. Which means nothing... cuz tomorrow I won't be... but hey, roll with the punches. I hate work... I have such back and knee problems from it.... god damn.... whatever. Let's see.... things to say.... I KNOW! Lyrics ( Read more... )

It's been a while... but I'm back. I always come back. I'm not really depressed... but I'm not happy either. Tomorrow... or rather today, I sign up for night school. I am also going to quite basics... and .... get my discman back! Had an okay day. Tired but I can't sleep... how it always goes. I can't even think of anything to write... I'm just so ( Read more... )

That photo. It huants me. Something about it. I urged it on. Yet, when I saw the physical evidence I could have killed myself. I wish I had never been born. I wish I would have died when I was 2. When I didn't know what death was. I wish the doctors just sewed me up and said "Fuck it". When will I ever learn? Life is not meant to be enjoyed. This ( Read more... )