So it's been a while for this but I got up early to drive steve to work and now i cant get back to sleep. I tried self-tanner because my friend kristina suggested it. It came out fine in most areas except for my arms and legs which for some reason are blotchy and sunk in more to especially dry spots. Yuck. However my midsection has never been this ( Read more... )

Its been a week and already im lost without my baby. My sister and Kiara came to stay with us for a while, which means I can't smoke obsessively, or sleep late, or sleep out as much, and I have to see my grandma. Yaaaaay... I'm just lazy and I want it to be monday already so I can be back with Steve. But then I have to deal with all the bullshit of ( Read more... )

let's just say what happened in the last couple of days DEMANDED an entry. Okay here goes: On Christmas eve I got up late and planned to drive to brooklyn to go shopping with my sister. All was going well until I stopped at a red light in brooklyn and a cop car was coming the other way with its sirens going and its lights flashing. Unfortunately ( Read more... )

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So.....I didn't get that prized part in the play....because apparently theater in binghamton is about popularity, who you know, and how many fucking shows you've been in even if you have less talent then some less-known theater students. I didn't realize that I was on broadway and that new people can't have a fucking chance. I didn't have time to ( Read more... )

Can I just say- thank the lord Cabaret is over!!!! I mean I had a good time with my crew, I made some good friends, got dressed really skanky and stole lots of cookies over the past two weeks but I definitely need my nights back. This weekend was great for several reasons. First I got thursday night off so it seemed like a friday. Then my girls ( Read more... )

i dont have the energy for much of anything right now. I needed to sleep in so desperately this morning and would have given anything to stay with Steve but off to the costume shop I went where I found out that I'm a horrible seamstress and the thing i;ve been working on for two weeks was fucked up and someone else had to fix it. Then i went to ( Read more... )

On Saturday I turned myself into a little red sexpot devil and paraded about downtown in fishnets and a little skirt with red sparkly flames but unfortunately the sparkles kept coming off because I put them on with glue stick which apparently was not enough of an adhesive agent because my room looks like a disco as does the floor at 22 Edwards. I ( Read more... )

Today I feel motionless. Lacking any real drive or passion of my own. I am like a small sea creature that clings to moving vessels. Lately my vessel is Steve. Before that the gym or weed or food or whatever takes my mind off of my empty spaces. Why am I dead inside? But I'm so fucking tired of feeling pulled around all the time. Tomorrow I must ( Read more... )