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Worried before surgery

Apr 23, 2008 22:10

I'm having top surgery with Medalie in 29 days, and I'm really really excited about it, theoretically, but I'm having a lot of trouble actually believing it's going to happen. Getting a non-insane therapist, hormones, and changing my name were all unusually difficult because of bureaucracy and craziness from my parents, who I've mostly reconciled ( Read more... )

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radioreed April 24 2008, 02:46:00 UTC

i dont know how to help at all but i know what you mean. i am using student loan money to pay for it and the majority is coming from my summer disbursement. i keep having all these thoughts that it will get messed up somehow and i wont get all the funds in time or something. ive made up all kinds of scenarios. im super excited, but i dont really feel like im enjoying it like i should. mostly im just getting super-impatient and nervous about it not happening for one reason or another.

slightlywee April 24 2008, 02:58:17 UTC

I keep having these batshit fears where I'm walking down the street and my brain goes "don't trip and fall and get hit by a car! You'll never be able to have surgery if all your bones are broken!" It's ridiculous.

hrolleif April 24 2008, 11:01:28 UTC

lol, sounds exactly like the kind of crap that goes through my mind!

agnostichaos April 24 2008, 03:21:44 UTC

I definitely know what you mean. I feared that something might stop me but that fear really didn't set in until I had made all the plans and arrangements. And then it was crazy how fast the day came and how easy it all was. :)It'll be here before you know it man. I don't think at this point there is much that could stop it. :) Enjoy and take care of yourself.

lionpluslamb April 24 2008, 03:37:34 UTC

Yeah, I went through the same thing. I am a big time worrier by nature, so I don't think I really believed it until, oh, around the time I woke up from surgery. It helped to try and focus on the things that I was looking forward to about surgery, rather than the things I thought would impede it. Looking at other guys' online surgery journals helped too....after all, if those guys did it, then I could too.

gieusse April 24 2008, 14:45:03 UTC

i had this fear that i would die in a plane crash on the way to get surgery and would go to my grave with boobs.

all this to say, i think it's normal to worry but you'll be great!

slightlywee April 25 2008, 04:13:06 UTC

i had this fear that i would die in a plane crash on the way to get surgery and would go to my grave with boobs.

OH NO

I mean, thanks. :)

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slightlywee April 25 2008, 04:13:30 UTC

Thanks, that's really helpful.