I complain a great deal in the journal and that might very well lead occassional readers to think I'm an overly depressed person. I do long for the past and friends I've lost, I do long for times which seemed similar and not as scary. The people I have and how I've grown suprises me. A year ago when my dad died, I remember how I acted, who I was. I ( Read more... )

Dad died today but it isn't a depressing day. Thanks Kitty and Michael for the support. It was really great and it really helped me. You both really lifted my spirits up. Thanks for the silly little songs too, Maddie.

And of course, thanks just for being alive Rose. XD

I hope wherever my dad is he's happy and he's pleased with me.

More and more I wonder about the validity of the Christian religion. It seems so backwards sometimes and so cruel, so unlike a forgiving God along with the Council of Nicea. My faith is failing, especially when I see how my fellow Christians are like. I don't know what to do and where to turn because, frankly, turning away from the only religion I' ( Read more... )

I miss the Internet and I miss my friends that are on it. For over a week I've only been able to irregularly use it. I miss my loved ones, I miss those I care about. I feel like I'm being forgotten and like I'm unimportant. Some are busy or aloof but with this ache inside of me, it feels like I'm dispensible ( Read more... )

Mom was driving me to school today later than usual because I got to sleep in. My first class was canceled and things were looking good. She needed to stop by the bank and deposit some money so it seemed fine to me. Then I hear "Even with that, your account is overdrawn" voiced by the bank-lady ( Read more... )

Thanks for the kind words from everyone. That really meant a lot to me and has lifted me up emotionally. I'm going to complain about yesterday though because I just need to get it out ( Read more... )

I may not be around much for a while. Things at my house seem to be merely falling apart around me. My home is always a mess, it's always full of junk and has odd smells from rotting food in it. Mom has little drive to do much, even after taking leave from her job. The checks she has said that are coming to help us haven't come and she no longer is ( Read more... )

Talked with Kitty today about everything. Talk isn't quite the correct word. The phrase "being a jerk-off" seems to be a lot more appropriate I'd say. I assumed the worst of her and acted out of rage when I truly believed she was doing something bad to me because of the insight of two friends. I shouldn't have brought two people who didn't know the ( Read more... )

Wow. Today... has just been awful ( Read more... )

Today sucks ( Read more... )