It's one hundred and nine degrees in this crowded room
No room to breathe with walls as cold as a gallery
This is no place for me
Such hard faces in smoke
The smell lingers in my clothes

i'm stupid.

I'm letting go.

College has been so non-stop ever since move in day. I'm continually battleing the same old ghosts and demons of trying to trust new people, trusting the wrong people, and always finding out the hard way in both situations. I've met so many people and found friends in people i've known for years. I like the freedom of being down here on my own but ( Read more... )

seriously, how many relationships can one person fuck up?

One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

i wish.

I miss you a terrible amount, think of you always and pray that you are ok. I hope that somehow somway we can work this out because it's barely enough anymore just to hold on. I love you. Miss you.

1.)I wonder sometimes if i would take these memories back that we've shared. These last four years. Because if i had ever known it would end up like this, maybe i could have been less attached to you as a friend. Maybe i wouldn't feel confused and so hurt. It was the four of us for sooo long it seems. It's like you really don't care about anyone ( Read more... )

It has been a long time since i wrote last in this, and by wrote i mean, an entry not about music, not one sentence long, yelling at someone or feeling bad about myself. I guess it's really time for a little update, for  amanda, christina, becca and tori, the only people who've ever really read this. Life has been really crazy. Hectic is a good ( Read more... )

I keep having these dreams where I wake up happy. 
but each time I quickly realise they are just dreams.