hmmm...
1.)I wonder sometimes if i would take these memories back that we've shared. These last four years. Because if i had ever known it would end up like this, maybe i could have been less attached to you as a friend. Maybe i wouldn't feel confused and so hurt. It was the four of us for sooo long it seems. It's like you really don't care about anyone but yourself. Dragging SO many other people into the whole mess has pushed me away further and further to the point where all i want to say to you is, i hope you can look back on this, and regret it.Realize the people you chose in your life aren't good ones, and know that you hurt the ones who would have always been there. I've never wished bad things for you, and i still don't but i want you to know you've hurt more people than just me. This has caused much more than you could know, and it's not my fault. You would say it is and point fingers, but what it comes down to was a choice you made. It just hurts. Disposable friend was all i ever was to you, there when you needed me, but when you didn't you could care less. "i knew for the last couple years our friendship would end" thats fucking bullshit, because we've only been friends for a few years. You can no longer help me grow as a person, and although i do believe i could help you, i'm done. Trying to help you see what you are becoming. I wish you could understand, but you won't ever try, because you don't care to. Thanks for nothing.
2.)Ahhhhhhh and then theres you. The polar opposite of the person above. You've always shown me, even when we are fighting that you will never give up on me. I've taken and grown so much in this relationship, and hopefully, i've given a lot too. Thank god you were there for me junior year, because i really don't know how long i could have made it without you. and the end of sophomore summer, really scary, but i trusted you and my mom, and look where that is now, hardly thought about, spoken about, but it's ok. It's a relief to know that even when i mess up you don't judge me, and you will always be there. College and boys and highschool and freakin middle school have tried to come between us, but they never ever will. We will always be best friends, and you will always be my 'miza'. Don't ever think that you don't deserve one bit of the great success that lies ahead of you. You are beautiful. Crazy beautiful and i love you. come on baby you're almost 18!!!!!!! YAAAAAAAAAY for crazy dance parties! and guitar playing, and fishing ( not that we have, but i could totally see us fishing) and the lake. and the silly boys. oy vey. we are the freakin definition of best friends in the dictionary.
3.)I have held onto you for so long, and for some reason even when i do let go, it always comes back around to you. we have the funniest way of working out problems; we don't. you will ALWAYS have a piece of my heart. sometimes, you really hurt me, but it's partially my fault because i don't tell you, but i need you in my life. I wish you could see me in the same light i see you................ It's wonderful. and NO you don't know who you are.
4.)ohh along time ago we met, and it was wonderful. You have always been there for me, a lot of the time without knowing it, and thats sometimes all someone needs. We get really annoyed with each other really easily, but thats ok thats how we work i guess. Take back what you said about my dog. he is not weird. i love you.
5.)I haven't seen you in years!!!! i miss you, let's go to your house and watch grease, and swiffer sweep!
6.)I think you are such a strong girl, but i think you change for the good of others, which is sad to see such an amazing person do. Your lesson in life (if i had to choose) is not to be afraid of who you are, and be it. Don't worry about the other people and their opinions.
7.) you know you want her.
8.) the way things started between us was weird, funny though, to look back on. I'm glad things have worked out for you the way they have, and for awhile i was really bitter at you about the things you said about me, but i have come to an understanding about it all. I agree, i'm changing, and trying not to be that annoying girl! I think you are a pretty good friend, i just wish maybe you could chill out about some of the things you get mad about *ahem
9.) OH MY GOD no one makes me laugh like you do. You are SUCH an amazing guy. Seriously, i loooove you. I love how we watch the oc together every week and text about it during commercials. What will we do now? I want you to find yourself a really amazing girl, because you deserve it! AND I'M SORRY I STOLE YOUR PEN IN CLASS, BUT I GAVE IT BACK OKKKK.
10.) LITTLE GIRL you're quite comical, and you make me laugh. But sometimes you make me really mad, but it's ok. You have found two friends in me and amanda, and i'm sure glad you did!
Ok one extra, super sneaky like.
11.) YOU MAKE ME CRAZY. I miss you though.just caaaallllllllllllll meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. summertime. :)
2.)Ahhhhhhh and then theres you. The polar opposite of the person above. You've always shown me, even when we are fighting that you will never give up on me. I've taken and grown so much in this relationship, and hopefully, i've given a lot too. Thank god you were there for me junior year, because i really don't know how long i could have made it without you. and the end of sophomore summer, really scary, but i trusted you and my mom, and look where that is now, hardly thought about, spoken about, but it's ok. It's a relief to know that even when i mess up you don't judge me, and you will always be there. College and boys and highschool and freakin middle school have tried to come between us, but they never ever will. We will always be best friends, and you will always be my 'miza'. Don't ever think that you don't deserve one bit of the great success that lies ahead of you. You are beautiful. Crazy beautiful and i love you. come on baby you're almost 18!!!!!!! YAAAAAAAAAY for crazy dance parties! and guitar playing, and fishing ( not that we have, but i could totally see us fishing) and the lake. and the silly boys. oy vey. we are the freakin definition of best friends in the dictionary.
3.)I have held onto you for so long, and for some reason even when i do let go, it always comes back around to you. we have the funniest way of working out problems; we don't. you will ALWAYS have a piece of my heart. sometimes, you really hurt me, but it's partially my fault because i don't tell you, but i need you in my life. I wish you could see me in the same light i see you................ It's wonderful. and NO you don't know who you are.
4.)ohh along time ago we met, and it was wonderful. You have always been there for me, a lot of the time without knowing it, and thats sometimes all someone needs. We get really annoyed with each other really easily, but thats ok thats how we work i guess. Take back what you said about my dog. he is not weird. i love you.
5.)I haven't seen you in years!!!! i miss you, let's go to your house and watch grease, and swiffer sweep!
6.)I think you are such a strong girl, but i think you change for the good of others, which is sad to see such an amazing person do. Your lesson in life (if i had to choose) is not to be afraid of who you are, and be it. Don't worry about the other people and their opinions.
7.) you know you want her.
8.) the way things started between us was weird, funny though, to look back on. I'm glad things have worked out for you the way they have, and for awhile i was really bitter at you about the things you said about me, but i have come to an understanding about it all. I agree, i'm changing, and trying not to be that annoying girl! I think you are a pretty good friend, i just wish maybe you could chill out about some of the things you get mad about *ahem
9.) OH MY GOD no one makes me laugh like you do. You are SUCH an amazing guy. Seriously, i loooove you. I love how we watch the oc together every week and text about it during commercials. What will we do now? I want you to find yourself a really amazing girl, because you deserve it! AND I'M SORRY I STOLE YOUR PEN IN CLASS, BUT I GAVE IT BACK OKKKK.
10.) LITTLE GIRL you're quite comical, and you make me laugh. But sometimes you make me really mad, but it's ok. You have found two friends in me and amanda, and i'm sure glad you did!
Ok one extra, super sneaky like.
11.) YOU MAKE ME CRAZY. I miss you though.just caaaallllllllllllll meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. summertime. :)