uhm. devin and i made a baby. and it will be born sometime around november 15. 

 i like to think about things that make no sense and make me hurt.
i wish i could feel good enough.

so, i'm getting really excited.
we have 17 days left until we leave.
we have an actual apartment, like...
a place to live that is not someone else's home.
i can't wait to hang out with my friends and see my siblings
and my mom and my cousins and my grandma.
and to be in NY!!
'cause NY is better than North Carolina.
I'm still trying to figure out what's ( Read more... )

only 44 days left until we move home!!
i'm soo happy!

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if i can't stop myself from hurting, i'll just add to the pain

i don't know what to do.  today, i took on a third job working two days a week at a "green" cafe and catering for them about 5 days a month.  i began my second job, baby-sitting two monsters, a week ago.  tomorrow, i am beginning the process of transferring to the sales floor in nordstrom.  my aunt is really happy that i'm working so much and so am ( Read more... )

 i have an issue understanding how some families just don't like each other.  i spent my thanksgiving listening to arguing.  the hunter's are just not happy people and i don't get it.  i've never been at my grandma carlino's while everyone is over and heard everyone screaming at each other.  i mean, the carlino's are really loud, but not in a ( Read more... )

 new number, darlings. 919 308 1376.  call me, text me. whatever.  i miss everyone.  all i've been doing is working.  i can't wait to come home for christmas.  devin and i are doing really well again, though.  i got over being completely depressed, so things don't suck completely anymore.  and he has a phone, too.  so it'll make things easier.  ( Read more... )

 i guess i should update this.  things are going well - davey was here last week & that made me very happy and a lot less depressed.  less homesick, too.  devin and i have been having many conversations and we've decided that we're not going to live together after next summer.  i want to move to philadelphia, 'cause i'm hating being this far away ( Read more... )