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i don't know what to do. today, i took on a third job working two days a week at a "green" cafe and catering for them about 5 days a month. i began my second job, baby-sitting two monsters, a week ago. tomorrow, i am beginning the process of transferring to the sales floor in nordstrom. my aunt is really happy that i'm working so much and so am i. i don't think i've ever been so motivated in my life. it's really weird, 'cause i feel like devin and i switched our priorities around when we moved down here. a year ago today, i was jobless and a bum. devin did everything for me and worked two jobs and paid for everything. since we moved, devin has kept his part-time job at ben and jerry's ice cream scoop shop and i don't have time to shower. i don't care about him working part-time, i like being busy and feeling responsible. my aunt, however, has a really big issue with devin working part-time. she told me today that devin is dragging me down...i told her that i completely disagree. i love him and i see nothing wrong with what he's doing. i know we're young and blah blah, but we've formed a pretty tight companionship and we share our finances and i don't have a problem with that. i can't explain how i feel about devin, but i think he's the greatest guy in the whole world and you know, sometimes one of us just needs some down time and the other has to support things and that's okay with me. he's depressed and i feel bad, because it hurts me that he's sad because of one of my family members. i want to move back to ny, but that would be one of the stupidest decisions i could make. i have 3 really well-paying jobs now and it's so much cheaper down here. we're visiting home for 3 days in march. i don't talk to anyone...i'm sad. i want someone to come visit me if i get an apartment down here. i don't know what to do.