a new boy... he's super sweet and makes me laugh. he cooks for me and lets me get his room messy. and of course he's done lots of prison time and is covered in tattoos so i'm madly in love. i can already see us having issues like i did with chris, though. he gets jealous and possessive easily, even though he says he trusts me. so here's the ( Read more... )

haven't smoked in 6 days. getting really anxious to head to costa rica. 6 months seems like way too long... i want to go now. i want to go somewhere... anywhere. i just don't want to hang out in slo for that long ( Read more... )

i get giddy and little secret smiles appear out of nowhere and i write stuff i'll never let him see, but i write it all the same...

crushes are fun.

i love being single. i think it's amazing. but right now, i feel like i'm dying and there's no one to take care of me... i want someone to make me top ramen and go get me movies and just generally hang out and let me complain.

i want warm soft kisses in a cold hard rain. i want sleepless nights of flesh and sweat. i want sunny mornings with pancakes and tenderness. i want bite marks and butterfly kisses. i want to be drowning. i want to burn up inside.

i could very happily strangle her right now.

hold my hand and give me kisses and let me know that you want me... is that so hard? why can't she do that? it's kisses and giggling and wrestling and all gross cute things when we're alone, and then we get out into the real world and she thinks she has to be a badass. she's emotionally unavailable all the time. grrrrr. i think i'm ready to ( Read more... )

i kissed the big guy again. it was an accident... but i liked it. but i like hanging out with wendy too... she's fun (when she's in a good mood). and then there's october...

turns out i'm good at getting myself into trouble...

warm summer nights and honey sweet kisses... i'm a happy kid

A and i are supposed to go hiking right now... she's coming to pick me up from school and take me to subway and hike bishops with me. i'm in trouble... i want hot sticky summer kisses and hand holding and cuddling and everything she is... and i can't have it.

but she's still talking about coming to guatamala with me...