I feel crushed, and guilty, and inept.......but what can I do? Those of you who still read this badly neglected journal, I'd like to keep up with you.

I feel a little lonely and kicked in the stomach......but its all good, I guess.

Anybody who sees this and would like to be added (and is a human) just ask *sniff*

wow, pathetic much?

I went and added everybody who added me, (mostly everybody) and due to some uneasiness on my part and to protect those of you on my friends list, I've chosen to lock my entries. If you want to be added, just drop a comment. Sorry, I never wanted to do this, but, you know.......

It is 4:45 am. I popped awake at 4. Today is my first day of nursing school. I haven't quite finished the first reading objectives but I did most of it ( Read more... )

My sister Eva would have been 45 years old today (or rather yesterday, I was too sad to think about it all day ( Read more... )

First I want to apologize to those on my friend's list whose posts i usually always comment on, for my self-centeredness and neglect. Charlie and Brett, this means you.....
I've been sleep deprived, nervous about school, and feel brain addled, often without a coherent thought to add.
I picked up my nursing books yesterday, they are sitting in a huge ( Read more... )

Thought I would post here for a change, I will most likely be around a lot less when school starts, I plan to spend as much time as possible at the library because I have a habit of getting distracted by bullshit here at the house....LJ will be taking a back seat, it has to.
I was pretty intimidated when i left orientation yesterday......They made ( Read more... )

I haven't posted here for a while, I'm so busy trying not to miss anything on the vast theatre that is LJ that I neglect my own internal dialogue. Story of my life. I went to bed after 1am and was up before 7, so today will be a splendid day.
Some people are stuck up and a little too politically correct for me. I, personally, think it's ok to make ( Read more... )

Tomorrow, unless the world ends today, will be our 12th wedding anniversary. We've actually been together for 14 1/2 years, but we decided to make it legal after i found out I was pregnant in '95......Family pressure, catholic instinct, whatever ( Read more... )

there's a new community just formed and you're all invited.....
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I'm probably not getting enough sleep lately, I've been getting to bed around 2 or 3 and can never sleep past 8. This is the first summer in ages that I haven't had to work and take classes, so without those commitments, I feel slow and lazy. I manage to get to the gym,  half ass clean my house, desultorily run errands, talk on the phone and of ( Read more... )