I am extremely sad today. I dont know if its the birth control or what, but I dont have the desire to do anything but sit here under the covers and hide. Nothing happened today that should make me feel like this but I am not in a good space. I want to cry and cant I just feel so overwhelmed. School is going well and nothing dramatic and stressful ( Read more... )

School is going good. This quarter is a breeze compared to last. Work it good. Life is ok at the moment actually, maybe I shouldnt say that out loud.  I do have some health issues going on but hopefully that will all resolve itself soon enough. Got a call from the doctor today freaked me out a bit but no use worrying about something that is out of ( Read more... )

2006. What a crazy ride this year has been. Going back to school, changing cases at work and crazy relationships. I have grown so much closer to a select few people and found a lot of people from the past both good and bad. The thing that effected me most this year would have to be my relationships with people.  I finally figured out what I want ( Read more... )

Oh Yeah......
Happy Fucking New Year
2 day and this year already blows!
I am over it already!

Last nite didnt go as bad as I thought or even per-usual. I didnt cry (well not really) Which for a family gathering is AMAZING! Santa brought me a few litle things which was nice. I began the night with Tia and her family at her mom's house and I just love that woman to death. Debby is the best!! We ate and opened presents there and then I was off ( Read more... )

Merry Christmas my Dears 
Be safe 
Be Merry 
Be drunk(i know i will be)
Ha!

My frustration level has reached a new peak. I am sad that I exhust myself trying to be nice to people and trying so hard to keep them an active part of my life. With the exception of TJ cuz he is dealing with his situation the people who call themselves my friends have disappeared. I see Tia like everyday, but sometimes even with her I feel like ( Read more... )

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
Idk I was half asleep

2. How much cash do you have on you?
Like $18 I am poor

3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR?"
Whore....thats what my grandma calls me

4. Favorite planet?
Earth is the only one I have visited and I guess its ok!

5. Have you ever planned to ( Read more... )

Would anybody mine if I fastforwarded the nest 27 days or so?? I am sick of christmas music. I am sick of christmas lights. I am sick of people!!! I hate christmas ( Read more... )

I am extremely sad. I am crying and it sucks. I hate feeling like this. I hate the cold weather. I hate being alone. I hate not knowing what he is thinking. I need a break. I am going to have a REALLY shitty GPA and its my fault. Things get too hard and I just give up. I hate that about myself. I am soo afraid to try and terrified of failing and ( Read more... )