[you're broken, when you're hearts not open

[fransta_oddbean]

today i found out a very good friend of mine, is suicidal. i don't know how this makes me feel. relieved that she finally told me, upset that i've found out it horrible conditions, angry at her for wanting to end everything & leave her family in such a cruel way  & desperate for her to regain the strength to carry on.

i'd like to think i've gotten

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[likestardust]

It's horrible to see a good friend go through something like that...All you can do is be there for her and encourage her to talk to someone professional. *hugs*

[fransta_oddbean]

it's horrible janey. all the way through the conversation i felt guilty for guilt tripping her into keeping herself alive even though i knew it was better that she hear it.

i don't think she will talk to a professional, last night all she kept saying was she didn't need anyone. the fact that i haven't heard from her today, she hasn't updated facebook or been on msn, freaks me out. i'm really scared she's done it =(

[likestardust]

Ok that sounds bad :/ The only option is to tell someone. She may not like it, but tough. In the end she'll be grateful and still be alive! Since she's already told you, it's obvious she wants someone to help her.

[fransta_oddbean]

she's still with us, but still very low. she still won't tell anyone & expects me to carry this on my own & got tetchy when i mentioned i'd told someone. how does she expect me to keep this to myself?

ahh, i love your icon, gives me some sense of love which i don't have right now. i need a friend who here for a decent hug right now