Decision.

[fotosax]

I don't think I've ever been faced with a decision this big.  Not even where to go to college was this hard... especially because it was mostly laid out for me.  I also don't think I've ever MADE a decision this big, then had to RE-decide it

Comments

[cmhkorn]

Yet if someone were to make that decision for you, I'd bet $100 that you would have the longest rebuttal (this goes for either yes or no). It's almost as if there's no use in having this decision made for you because no one will be able to tell you what you want to hear. I seriously think you're just going to have to have your cake (either way you slice this bitch) and NOT eat it.

However, I am noticing that you no longer speak or write about your health and gender in relation to your living situation.

[fotosax]

Yes, the health/gender issues almost seem secondary to all this right now... I don't know what that means, really.

[mindquakes]

usually when you are having this many doubts about something, it means that its a bad idea. stop thinking. just stop. and listen with your heart (i know this sounds cheesy...but try). don't ignore your intuition. look at all of this uncertainty, how wishy washy everyone is. this is not the strong, solid, stable agree that needs to be present when moving in together. what if they boys all of a sudden decide they don't want to share their love nest? this will not be your only opportunity to move out. it won't be! to me, its like this...you are standing on a shore facing the sea. everything in front of you is so unknown, mysterious, you want to see things you've never seen before, so you see a ship coming to shore...very close to the shore, but not quite close enough because lets pretend you dont know how to swim. so, its either jump and most likely drowned...its not certain that you will drowned, but oh, say about 95% chance you will drowned. you can take that chance or just wait until you find a captain kind enough to meet

[fotosax]

wait, why "drowned" and not "drown?" AHHHH! Whit, you're scaring me!

Anyway, I know what you mean, though... like, just wait around until the opportunity seems safer and makes more sense. I am thinking that, too... but still just don't know.

I hope to talk more with both of them in the next few days to resolve some of the doubts.

[sylverflames]

All of the hard decisions are like that, but I agree with the person who told you that whatever someone else decided for you wouldn't actually make up your mind.

Hope it works out. *hugs*