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This exhaustion level is at an 8. And I say 8 because there’s still a war to be won.
It’ll serve me right to remember that.
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No matter how thick skinned, there are millions of electrified nerve endings in there, open & exposed.
When I feel this, I can barely catch my breath... the worst case & where things are placed lead me to believe this will be a different stage, a whole new journey.
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I'm a traditional addict, no doubt about it. I work hard mentally to change patterns, to keep how stress affects me limited. I'm constantly walking a fine line because let's be real, the carousel never stops turning & it's our job to not just see the blessings always in front of us, but to accept them & share with them. That can't happen for me ( Read more... ) -
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Thank God for my cousins. Who they are teach me so much, little to their knowledge. I'm not sure how I'd be handling this without their soulful energy.
https://youtu.be/yrotsEzgEpg
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The intensity of this is just so high. I can't believe this is happening & you aren't here. I'm afraid he'll die, I'm afraid he'll die not knowing anything lighter in life. I'm afraid for myself, that I'll be left with... a different kind of emptiness. The emptiness that I now see in Rosie & Mary. I'm afraid because he is so unknowing of a ( Read more... ) -
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Never would I have thought my brother & I would share the experiences & conversations we've had. Not to mention, how our aunt's love for our mom has overflowed into an abundance of light & guidance. We are so blessed.
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I was thinking of what pictures I have of us to change my homescreen to & it dawned me, there won't be any future pictures to choose from. It's obvious, of course, certain things just hit a different nerve once in a while.
Last year there was greif in accepting that was our last Mother's Day with you but this year there's still just an open wound ( Read more... ) -
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I miss you more than words can ever convey. In fact, there's nothing new to even say.
I still haven't adjusted to living with the sadness of your loss & the last month or so, stings more than ever. This will be a lifelong process that will probably never sit right within my soul.
I love you to heaven & back. (quite literally now, 'eh?)
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but I'm still here...
We never did master how to live our lives together. These past few years were more than likely, the best we ever did. Sadly for you, some of your most trying times. I guess I can include myself into that as well. One thing is a fact... we never mastered how to live without one another ( Read more... ) -
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You're gone to stay & the intensity always comes by surprise. At least you know now, what a true ray of sunshine you were.
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