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This is how I feel when Ross and I are together in good times when I know he loves me and he shows me he loves me ( Read more... ) -
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nevermind not going, too depressed to have fun with the girls. I dont know where I'm going but I'm going -
damn damn damn damn damn
Ross is playing fucking games with me AHHHH Now he sends me messages this morning saying "I'm looking forward to seeing you today" and sending me IM's when I wake up, calling me when I'm walking to work so I have company when I walk so I dont have to walk alone. Shit like this, what the fuck. But yet, he just wants a friend right now. I dont say ( Read more... ) -
Monday morning
I was fine last night. I realize more and more with every day that Ross doesnt want back. I told me last night that he thinks I've lost all this weight because of stress. Which i replied that I dont think I've been that stressed out. He told me I have and that other wise he wouldnt know what me being stressed sounded like. Which was part of the ( Read more... ) -
I feel okay right now
I had a couple of break downs today. But I now see my pattern. I know when the hardest time of the day is. Late afternoon and early morning. I'm fine at night. I can talk myself through this and I'm okay. I know I shouldnt talk to him, but I'm not contacting him. He is contacting me. I am responding with the least of emotion to him as possible. I ( Read more... ) -
he pisses me off
I think now hi's just trying to rip my heart out. He puts on facebook that he's single. Okay cool, I thought it was break, he says its a break up. Cool whatever. But now he's sending me messages on IM asking how my day was ( Read more... ) -
Life just continues to shit on me
So I finally find a guy around my neck of the woods that I actually like. He and I share things in common, we have things to talk about, he seems to be the type of guy to not treat me like shit. But what happens, I give him up. I am too nice of a person. I know he will be happier with my close friend but it still pisses me off ( Read more... ) -
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So I'm really uncomfortable with a situation that just happened. I was alone in a room with a boy that I know. He started making remarks then tried to lock the door. I told him no, to keep it unlocked and he got upset. He started being an ass to me. Making rude comments to me and then kicked me out of his room. Then as I tried to leave down the ( Read more... ) -
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I'm a bit sad today. i just realized the date and what happened today a few years back. Today was the day I lost Kayla. My best friend, my comfidont, my partner in crime. Kayla was my everything. She lead me through some of the toughest years of my life. She taught me that life can be shitty, but will always get better no matter what. If the sun ( Read more... ) -
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I woke up this morning after a really bad dream. I could only think of two people and what they were doing to me. I didn’t really like it to be honest. When I got on my computer I opened up a journal entry from last year about this person. I don’t think they will know that it is them, because our lives our different now. But, I still feel the same ( Read more... )