Life just continues to shit on me
So I finally find a guy around my neck of the woods that I actually like. He and I share things in common, we have things to talk about, he seems to be the type of guy to not treat me like shit. But what happens, I give him up. I am too nice of a person. I know he will be happier with my close friend but it still pisses me off.
I decided that it was obvious that he would rather date my close friend. He has been talking to her the same amount of time as me, but he has become closer to her than me. True he makes out with me more, but that really doesnt count. Kissing is like a handshake. But, none the less, he goes over to spend time at her apt. and stays the night. I trust that nothing happens, but it still doesnt make up for the fact that he has never done this shit with me. I've never had him come to my room, I just dont think that is appropriate at this stage of our friendship. I know myself and I know how I act.
If he were to come to my room, I would fuck his brains out. Thats not very lady like now is it. I have strong feelings for a kid that wants to be with someone else. And that sucks.
I hope that he treats her right. Because, she has a hard time when a guy disses her. Like every girl, she doesnt like rejection. But, I dont want him to hurt her. I'm the one who is going to wipe away her tears when he breaks her heart. She was only going into this to have fun. I know her and I know that it is more than just fun now.
Too bad, either way, now and later, I'm the one on the shit end of the deal. I get to hurt now, hurt later, and then hurt when he hurts her. If that makes any sense. Life sucks and has a way of shitting on me time and time again.
Why can't I just once be the one who is happy. With someone who is happy to be with me, and happy to be happy? Fuck
I decided that it was obvious that he would rather date my close friend. He has been talking to her the same amount of time as me, but he has become closer to her than me. True he makes out with me more, but that really doesnt count. Kissing is like a handshake. But, none the less, he goes over to spend time at her apt. and stays the night. I trust that nothing happens, but it still doesnt make up for the fact that he has never done this shit with me. I've never had him come to my room, I just dont think that is appropriate at this stage of our friendship. I know myself and I know how I act.
If he were to come to my room, I would fuck his brains out. Thats not very lady like now is it. I have strong feelings for a kid that wants to be with someone else. And that sucks.
I hope that he treats her right. Because, she has a hard time when a guy disses her. Like every girl, she doesnt like rejection. But, I dont want him to hurt her. I'm the one who is going to wipe away her tears when he breaks her heart. She was only going into this to have fun. I know her and I know that it is more than just fun now.
Too bad, either way, now and later, I'm the one on the shit end of the deal. I get to hurt now, hurt later, and then hurt when he hurts her. If that makes any sense. Life sucks and has a way of shitting on me time and time again.
Why can't I just once be the one who is happy. With someone who is happy to be with me, and happy to be happy? Fuck