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[flamingsword]

Just woke from a dream where I had apahsia, and could not talk. I could sing, hum, and whistle, but as soon as I tried to listen to words or say them, nothing would work. Maybe 'nightmare' is a better descriptor. At least my headache is gone

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[elucreh]

My only thought is that it will make you even more attractive.

But the thing is, Jon Walker has given me a fetish.

[flamingsword]

I will seduce you with my coffee-serving ways!!

Hate to be a killjoy...

[bardkris]

But the happy post-violence is not as weird as you might think. I've seen it in at least a dozen people and roughly half of those managed to turn it into something 'constructive'. Admittedly, most of the other half either went crazy, to prison, or to dead. Maybe it's because I'm used to living on and with the lunatic fringe, but that doesn't really bother me that much. I've had a weird 'opposite end of the scale' thing myself, but that really doesn't bear worth talking about in your journal.

I had wondered why you were never around anymore. I figured the last conversation I'd offended you somehow, or that you were superbusy. Do tell me if it's the first one, please.

Re: Hate to be a killjoy...

[flamingsword]

It wasn't post-violence, it just lingered after. I'm happy when I'm breaking shit.

And, damn. You're determined to think you can offend me, aren't you? I keep telling you: not gonna happen! The next time you say it, I'm gonna start forwarding you things I've seen on 4chan.

It will be gross.

[jslorentz]

Enlightening as always. I get the sense that while most people don't experience the extremity you do, the anger-joy phenomenon is not unique.

I had a lot of rage around that age, and now I'm ridiculously pacifist. I wonder how much of it was working through it and how much was just closing it off...

You be who you are, because that continues to be interesting and, often, awesome.

You should work at Starby's! Which one? Kare and I would visit all the time!!!

I can't say I totally get it...

[azuzil]

And being a sadist I've been to that place of blissful destruction. Of happy perfect violence where there are no limits and no holding back. Where I always have a rictus grin swinging as hard as I can and hearing that meaty twack again and again.

And for me it isn't about Anger, its about violence and control and frustration, and being finally finally unbound.

Re: I can't say I totally get it...

[flamingsword]

I'm with you on the feeling free part, because freedom is a piece of joy. But there's no control, no frustration, and when I'm doing it it doesn't feel violent, not like being angry does.

It's like a nonsequitur: I want to hit things when I'm angry, but once the hitting gets started, I'm not hitting things because I'm angry, I'm doing it because I'm NOT.

[rens_sanctuary]

I have a lot of experience with being logical while under physical stress thanks to my job. I understand the Thinky about this. I've been to the Worked Up stage of things and had to get to the Bring Myself Back stage, Things You Never Thought You'd Need Mastery Of category, useful and entertaining on so many levels. :D It's useful to Thinky about The Fight In You. Well done!

[flamingsword]

Things You Never Thought You'd Need Mastery Of is becoming a tag. Imma re-do those today. Help me think up some better ones!

[rens_sanctuary]

My genius is on it...