I'm taking a look at shame and other bullshit class issues I've given headspace to, trying to understand why I've had them and how that informs my opinion of American class structure and the Occupy movement. The internet does not desegregate the older generations, but maybe there's hope for the current generation growing up in online culture; maybe ( Read more... )

I have weather veins.
They are especially sensitive
to dust storms and hurricanes.
When I am nervous my teeth chatter
like a wheelbarrow collecting rain.
I am rusty when I talk.
It’s the storm in me. - - Andrea Gibson ( Read more... )

How much do you write fanfiction in your head? When you're reading a story or watching a movie, does your imagination fill in missing details and add depth to characters? Where does that skill come from ( Read more... )

I'm less introspective when I'm busy. And I have been busy for the last two months. But here are the things I've figured out lately: a, I only hyperfocus in response to a condition I'm trying to escape; b, I like books and reading better than movies because my imagination is more entertaining than visually processing the same story and the book ( Read more... )

When Xenoix left me his trial pack of 10 Lexapro (10 mg each) it was in case I got into an irredeemable funk. Some time before Thanksgiving I decided that since no combination of OTC meds was working for me without accidental glutening, I was going to swallow my pride and formulate a plan to try to get out of the funk as swiftly and safely as ( Read more... )

"Is there any place you know well enough to walk around blindfolded? Someplace that you know the landscape of intimately, the smells and hazards and denizens? That's how well I know self-hatred." -me ( Read more... )

It wasn't the first energy trade that Doug and I did (I looked it up- the timing's wrong) but maybe it was one of the secondary ones when we were doing reiki training. Trading large chunks of energy with other people can cause odd behavior pattern shifts, out-of-character thoughts and feelings, as you experience some of that person's pattern. Doug ( Read more... )

Over on her journal, cluegirl has been talking about bullying, and the need for speaking the controversy ( Read more... )

... wherein I have bruised my shins on the hidden coffee table that is my judgments about myself ( Read more... )

"SometimesSometimes things don't go, after all ( Read more... )