At first perhaps the air is only moist, then that moistness becomes more dense and steady. Before you really know it, you're standing in a persistent and torrential downpour. It is hard to know precisely when the rains began, but there is, at this point, no manner of denying it.

That is how I came to know I love you.

me: oh no, I'm not at all afraid of how much I love him. I'm afraid of how much he's come to love me.

Windy: good morning ( Read more... )

Sometimes, in relationships, particularly in their endings, you do not get closure. You are left with yourself, and you have to get whatever it is the best that you can on your own, and you move on.

I wrote this some time ago (I am bad with time, but about two years?), in a somewhat secretive corner, but I've decided to share it now.

I have been ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder

if I am a seagoat, a creature of earth and water, and you a dragon, made of fire and air... do we complete some desperate need in one another, or do the oceans boil you burning me while I drown you?

Or something subtle, something both.

A second person has come to me with information that a specific person is frightened of me ( Read more... )

There is a memetic, shared language used when people talk about love and the loss there of. Our first, or biggest, love -- the one which all else will be compared to ( Read more... )

Moods swing. Yesterday I was crafting a floormat out of spare rope I'd taken to the burn that made it back, and some acrylic yarn, and thinking smugly "fuck, I MAKE shit. useful shit. that's awesome." and thinking how there's nothing I've seen on pinterest (aside from knitting and food) that's ever produced a fear of my inability to make it, if not ( Read more... )

I gave Rio room to speak to me about something, because that is part of my job as a parent, and now they're able to rest, that being off their chest. But now it is on mine, and I find I cannot go to sleep ( Read more... )

I forget to post photos over here for people that don't have FBs...


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