i wonder if i'll get any money.

i need to leave this fucking piece of shit city.

in my dreams i work in a little coffee shop in new york barely affording a shady flat. and in these dreams i'm happy.

i hate everyone who has a job and money. yes, you too.

days left until probaby the most epic episode of glee: 3
until glee's prom and kurt in kilt: 9

are gay porn stars in gay porn movies seriously mostly straight?! i don't know but i read something like that and, i mean, wtf.

you never know you were empty until you are filled and full. yes, it's about bottoming during sex. i'm a girl, i'm a bottom ( Read more... )

days left until next glee: 7 A WEEK, OMG.

PROCRASTINATION, holy damn, this isn't funny. if my laziness and lack of responsibility are actually a mental condition then i've got more problems than i thought i did. EVERYTHING here is like a written description of me, to the tiniest detail, from childhood, to being good at studying and ending with ( Read more... )

days left until next glee: 12

i came out to my dad.

it was so fucking hard. jesus. i still think coming out isn't needed but i wanted to be in clear in case i bring home a girl. but the moment i wanted to say it i felt so nervous, anxious, terrified. i didn't know how to start, how to breach the subject. i couldn't just say it like "oh, dad, you ( Read more... )

days left until next glee: 18i refuse to think about my real life. just. NO ( Read more... )

days left until next glee: 24continuing my thoughts on sexuality, sometimes i catch myself wondering how it feels to NOT be attracted. i'm bisexual, aside from family or close friends, sleeping with ANYONE would be filled with awkwardness and tension. because, by default, EVERYONE is in my hit zone. different from homosexuals and heterosexuals who ( Read more... )

i'm letting my life fall apart. i just sit and do nothing. there's something funny about it, like i don't feel how old i am, like i don't realise that i'm not a teenager who has time for mistakes and being a bamf. i just... don't care. i really can't bring myself to think about "what will happen in a year", because... i don't care. somehow. someway ( Read more... )

days left until next glee: 12this is really eerie. it's like my life is happening without me, or like nothing is happening, everything slowed down to maximum. it's like i'm clouded, fogged and see nothing. people move around, i do things i have to do like eating, sleeping, showering, going to doc, etc. i even talk with brothers, smile but it's like ( Read more... )

days left until next glee: 24okay i need to unplug my wifi and give it to my bro so that under NO CIRCUMSTANCES i should use internet today. so much to do and i don't know, i won't sleep probably. because i'm an ass and i don't know a thing about time management ( Read more... )

days left until next glee: 32

is FANTASY SHRINE closed? damn it, just a little less than three months and there are unpleasant changes. seems like my nick isn't there and i can't register. bah. oh well. i wish i could say "whatever" but i came back to get my yaoi fix yet i get a feeling scanlations world went through some priceless shit while i ( Read more... )