Saturday was quite the day. I slept somewhat late and then i ran off with Salvador to go get Cynthia and we went to the Japanese Gardens and had a nice little picnic. Thera and Matt met us there and we all hung out fir a while before we split. Thera and Matt left and Cynthia, Sal, and me went to memorial city mall. I helped cynthia looked for a ( Read more... )

I was hoping that things were going to start getting better, now im not so sure. ever since we had that fight i feel like everythings aganst me. It really helps my point when i think about how no one really seems to care when im upset here at school. Not everyone but it does seem to go generally unknoticed. then whenever anyone hears Alex's side of ( Read more... )

I must say that everything has been going well. Espeshaly for January AND since my bday is friday. It does make me worry that im getting set up for a big fall tho. But idk On friday i went and saw half of bedtime stories. It was a lot of fun just laughing and having fun just talking u kno? We had dinner at red robin and just ad fun even tho it was ( Read more... )

We talked. I don't think it made anything any different. I dont think im going to go to oni con. In a way it did make me feel a lot better. In another way i still feel horrible. I guess i just have to holding on right? Its conflicting. For once at of all this year and a half (can u believe that?) I think i might have a chance. And yes i kno that ( Read more... )

Fighting since wed. Great. He won't even look at me in the hallway, and when he does...he's glaring. Plus im failing 2 classes. Well its better then 4 ^^;;;  This is stupid it shouldn't even be this big of a deal, but damn it. "Why does she always have to be so annoying?" fuck you. And i had such a weekend. Oooo well looks likes its time to go!

 in class again....is this the only time i write? lol no more time at home i dont even really have time to sleep. How fun T.T I leave for Italy on Friday 2 more days!!! Scary....where did the time go? In no time I'll be in Italy. Missing Alex XD how sad. I'll be missing everyone really except maybe..... but ya everythings going well as of now. Well ( Read more... )

I miss my xanga but i need to rant this this will do for now. *sigh* it all started w/ fear....im scared of going to Rome. Scared that EVERYTHING will go wrong. From there it branched off to letting moms yellings get to me. Then i hacked what little self esteem i had and made it die. Theeennn i started to destroy myself and my feelings for Alex. ( Read more... )

so xanga still wont open i guess im stuck here for now, not that livejournal is that bad or anything im just worring about my xanga and lol being able to talk to unitednote lol cuuz i kno Joshs passwords now! well kinda heh w/e tho. well today...i think i fish tried to kill me...not a freshmen fish a fish fish that swims around....y do i think this ( Read more... )

no time no see huh? lol i know. Its been like 2 years well a lot changed and to tell u the truth...im only here on lj cuz well xanga crashed or something lol im not sure  i just kno that it wont open! and im pissed off >> theyd better get it up and runnign again or im going to be soo upset!!! i had so many post on there so many memories....ya theyd ( Read more... )