Since Finn McCumhail is no more, I've changed my handle (and LiveJournal) to gebogirl .  For those who want to know, Gebo is the Nordic rune that the letter "X" comes from.  It means "gift".

I'll contine to post there about my life and all the strange things in it.

The world has been full of suggestions to make me "better".  I know they're trying to help, but the implication seems to be I'm not a real woman yet.

You should grow your hair.
Shouldn't you change your name?
How much will hormones really change you?
Are you getting surgery?  Down there?

I'm living proof that genitals have nothing to do with gender, ( Read more... )

I've been talking a lot about my old life and new life.  The boy and the girl.  My mask and my true face.  Finn and Dorian.  I realize that for some - or many - how I talk about my past may seem as though I despise it.  I talk about sacrifice and death and regrets.  Let me set the record straight as best I can.  I feel it's important to express how ( Read more... )

It's been two weeks now since I started living as a woman.  "Living Full-Time" or "transitioning" as it's called in the trans circles.  It's funny, but when I used to think about what it would be like back when I was deep in the closet, I pictured a time of public crucifixion.  Perhaps not an outright stoning, but I just knew something biblical was ( Read more... )

This whole week I've heard so many people tell me how brave I am.  But I prefer to see it as how lucky I am.

Friday I went out as a woman by myself for the first time, and not only did I not face any jeers or harassment, but I actually saw a few eyes check me out.

Saturday I met other T-girls my age for the first time in my life.  I listened to ( Read more... )

For too long I've been sharing my body with two people; we'll call them Finn and Dorian to make matters simple.  They were fully aware of each other, but struggled for control constantly.  To most of the world during high school I was Finn, with Dorian only coming out in private or amongst very close friends.  But as I grew older and stronger and ( Read more... )

Friday I had my very-first-ever therapy session with Feleshia Porter, who specializes in gender issues.  It's the first step I have to take in order to transition from being "male" to "female".  I'll be honest, I was worried about what a therapist would say about my fucked-up life.  I guess I've always seen therapists as people who invent problems ( Read more... )

Okay, let's just get it out of the way first this time:

I'm not actually gay. I'm transgendered.

Yes, as in "I'm a straight woman trapped in a man's body," though I hate to use a stereotype.

Wow. Hold up. I know. It's weird.

The truth is I can't begin to describe how weird it's been pretending my whole life to be something everyone else thought I ( Read more... )

I just finished writing my first comic project!  For those of you who don't know, Ron needed a comic for his portfolio and asked me to write "something involving mistaken identities."  So I just ran with it and got it out in two weeks.  I've already seen half of the art for it, and I gotta say it is very cool to see your work come to life!  The ( Read more... )

By the way, I've been writing in a separate blog lately so that's why I haven't been updating the Livejournal as much as I used to.  I consider this to be "friends only" sort of stuff, whereas My So-Called Lifestyle is all the stuff that I write.  So, if you're interested at all check it out some time.  Just a little warning that there may be just ( Read more... )