I like to think of myself as someone who does not need things to be happy yet I have real penchant for toys and multiples of things. For example, I have three laptops. each with it's own location and purpose. The one I am using right now lives in the den and is used for school work, email and livejournal. There is one in the living room that is ( Read more... )

a moment to whine if I may. Yesterday I went to the dentist and got 3 crowns put in. My teeth hurt and my face is swollen today. My real pain though is in my thumb where a dog, excited by a treat I was offering, accidently bit me just on the edge of the nail bed. It hurt when it happened and it still hurts. and worse than that it is ugly but ( Read more... )

A few years ago I knew I would need to return to that place from which I had run screaming. That place where my memories and now my father are buried. I have finally decided to go and make my peace not with him - that will always be what it was- but with myself. I go with the hope that when I leave this time I leave the fears of becoming my ( Read more... )

Yeah right. It was only a 4 day work week and most of it went fast but today seems to be dragging on like time is going backwards. I packed up some of my books and stuff. I am still amazed by how much personal stuff a person can amass in a very small office. It seems never ending. Oh well I have some time yet to get to the bottom of it. In the ( Read more... )

Maybe today will be a super productive day or at least it better be I have much to accomplish today. Including an assignment school and a couple or three meetings as well as a huge report for work. Okay maybe not huge but about 15 -20 pages which when my job has previously on ever required 1-2 page reports that is huge ( Read more... )

How is it that someone can comment on my journal entry and I am not authorized to view it??? Hmph! this happened about a month ago. Who are you and what did you say?

There is something about change that makes me nostalgic. I am excited about the changes that are coming my way. Possibly a new city, a new job, a new way of life - It is a chance to start again. An opportunity to give up on all lost hope and move into new hope and new direction. Yet I find myself mulling over mistakes that I made in this half of ( Read more... )

It all seems a bit extravagant but here I am in Italy. Christmas eve we went to the Sistine Chapel - It was very crowded but awesome nonetheless. I was quite taken with the art especially the art on the ceiling. There was a lot of walking that day as we walked for 45 minutes just to get there and then walked around for another couple of hours ( Read more... )

Today I sit with my journal open as an experiment to see what might be lurking inside my mind. I has occurred to me that I have been spending too much time wondering and perhaps worrying about the well being of someone else. This is usually a good sign I am not listening to what I may be feeling. I thought if I cam here and did some free ( Read more... )

Going in to work these days has been quite a struggle - what with knowing I was about to be packaged. And FINALLY they told me. I guess it was that or I was going out in a box... for today I am just happy that they put on their adult hats and finally wrapped up the months and months of not knowing when the game would be called. It has been ( Read more... )