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Missing You...
Perhaps I shall always miss Teikon. It seems odd for us not to be friends in this life. So very odd. Yet he is such a homophobe and that is one of the things I simply cannot abide. In the next life perhaps he will not be such an unreasonable person. As for this life I am better off, even if it occasionally does make me rather sad.
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Moving On...
To be honest I feel as though a weight as lifted. A burden whose name I know all too well. For so long it had been so hard, but I'm finally able to move on without regret. This fills me with the most amazing sense of relief. Thank-god, it is finally done and over with ( Read more... ) -
Lovely New DP
Just found a whole load of very beautiful display pictures. Discovery things make me happy. P1 is so very friendly. I adore the people on there! A very good group if I do say so myself. -
We were friends once...
Remember after I quit the SILC? We didn't speak for 5 years. What the hell happened? Thought we were better friends than that, and yet you just disappeared from my life. Of course until you needed me for the Centre. *Shrugs* It matters, not. At least that is the lie I tell myself.
It's all right I suppose. I know we really are only friends ( Read more... ) -
Icrat...
Sometimes I find myself watching you, and making up whole scenarios in my head. Would it be so wrong to act one out? -
Happiness, More or Less...
Contentment anyway. Happiness is a foreign country where I don't speak the language. "Everything is good, " this is what I tell myself until I believe it to be true... -
Anxiety...
If only I could be sick, this feeling in the pit of my stomach might abandon me like the stars on a cloudy night ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
"Fate seems to just blow you along down the path of life, whilst destiny is a proven force."
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It didn't work
*Sigh* I cannot get anything right, and I suppose we should add committing suicide to the list. As soon as I get more pills I will try again... It works out better this way. I will be able to buy Lucy her ring beforehand. She deserves to have it! One last gift ( Read more... ) -
Dying is easy to do, I've done it many times before...
Goodbye my darling. I love you so... I am fading, fast. If only things could have been different between us. But as much as you love me you don't want to be with me, and I cannot live without you --- so I won't. There is always next time. The next life. I can hear the clocking ticking away the seconds. All I have left ( Read more... )