in the thin spaces...

[femmequixotic]

So, it's been over three weeks since I've updated. I was considering making it an even month, but that just seemed ridiculous. I've spent the time doing Ascendio planning, spending time with the kittens, redesigning my journal, not writing, and struggling with depression, woe.

Comments

[alisanne]

You have so many far wiser people commenting that all I'll say is *hugs* and leave it at that.

{{{hugs}}}

[femmequixotic]

Thank you, dear. Hugs are HUGELY appreciated, let me tell you. *snugs back*

[bicrim]

I'm so sorry you are suffering. I think grief is the right word for a lot of it. I remember you speaking about losing your chance for children with the cancer, and that seemed very profound. I just want to validate that grief, if that is part of what you are experiencing. It is a real loss, and you have every right to feel it. I imagine that a loss of that form of creativity could impact on feeling creative at all. I am so glad you have god in all of this, and I hope that you can feel his grace and peace and warm healing power as you recover.

[femmequixotic]

Thank you, dear. Yeah, part of what I'm grieving is that loss of kids. It kind of shifted how I saw my future some, and I'm learning that it's important to acknowledge that and to let myself go through the sadness of that particular grief.

[femmequixotic]

You are the best. Seriously. *hugs you hard*

[hmufson]

Also, something else to think about is that September and March are very very hard on those of us with depression. It has something to do with the rapid change in light - it messes with our brains, even when we're on medication (don't know if you read Dooce, but she has a post about it, which led me to poke around to read more on the subject). So I dread every September, even as I look forward to March with a combination of joy and terror, because although there's more light, I'm still upset and angry and sleepless. And it takes me a while to get back to anything approaching "normal".

So, try to be well, take it easy on yourself and ask your therapist about seasonal depression to see if he/she has any extra suggestions for things you can do that might help. I'm partial to french fries as a cure for depression, personally.

[femmequixotic]

You know, that's true. I always struggle through February in particular, and into March, and that's got to have built up and affected how I'm feeling now. I should probably keep that in perspective too--thank you for that reminder. *hugs*

And really, is there anything that french fries can't cure? :D

[nenne]

I know how you feel and I feel for you. *hugs*

[femmequixotic]

Thank you, dear. *hugs* I really, really appreciate that.