i can't keep doing this. i need someone to come hold my hands and walk me through the things i need to do. i'm not healthy. i know this. i'm sick of people telling me to forget about him, to move one, to smile, to forget about the whole thing, like it's that easy. but 7 months later i shouldn't still be crying myself to sleep. i don't even care i'm ( Read more... )

i can't do it. i need help. 

he already has a new girlfriend. i thought it was getting better. i was way wrong.

I go to bed thinking about him. Dream about him. Wake up thinking of him. Smile. Remember. Then cry again.

my days/state of mind are getting worse instead of better. I no longer have any desire to ever leave my bed/room.

i miss Tyler more than ever.

today would've been mine and tyler's 3 year anniversary. idk that my head has ever sucked this much for so long.

i never wanna love again, but it'll turn into this, which hurts more than i can stand. he told me today he doesn't miss me or care about me anymore. idk what to do.

i didn't know it was possible to feel this much pain.

i got dumped on Friday. which was my 21st birthday. Tyler dumped me 12 days short of our 3 year anniversary and about 6 months from our wedding day. all he said was that he was "in-love" with me anymore. but that i was a best friend to him. so i've moved back into my parents' house after being gone over 2 and 1/2 years. idk what to do or think. i ( Read more... )